Plan a bit?
It was a holiday today. Lots of lazing around. Read Cujo by Stephen King. It is quite good. Not that scary. Or I will know later tonight.
Food-wise it was mixed. In the breakfast had south Indian pancakes (dosa) made of cream of wheat (I think), rice flour, wheat flour, plain yogurt, sprinkling of ginger and green chillies. Came out quite well actually. All of us had some. I had three. Lunch was rice and vegetables. Not terribly healthy. However all home cooked, so kind of okay. Had a bowl of pineapple, a small glass of orange juice, a small bowl of pro-biotic sugar-free ice cream (really bad taste) in the evening. Will have a couple more of these pancakes for dinner. Eating quite a lot actually.
I need to plan more. It’s just that I have such a rebellious attitude towards doing anything disciplined and good. Well - not anything. Seem to manage reasonably well at work. Even maintaining a time log at work to meticulously manage my time. However food and exercise seem to defeat me without a fight at all. I was looking at my progress page here. It almost makes me cry. It’s so much effort gone down the drain. I have gained so much more. I would now need to lose at least 22 kgs, whereas I was about 8 kgs away from the same goal. R is the excuse? But now? Time enough to get a hold on.
I do not really know. I seem to be doing some short burst efforts on and off. Unless I can change something basic in me, is it any good? I mean trouble and stress would always be there. Must I eat to relieve that stress always. Or I would need to plan in military precision to have only good things to eat around.
Perhaps I should go to a dietitian now. Nowadays the diets are quite balanced for most part. They should be do-able. And exercise. Should I take that break for a few weeks and clear my head a bit? I feel so tense and feel that time is running out so badly. Well it is and it is not. I need some kind of a sane sustainable approach which also lets me have my current lifestyle. Do-able?
Let’s see. Let me try a food plan for the week. Will be back later.
love,
iniya
RubyJean said,
March 1, 2010 @ 12:07 pm
Ini, I think I know just what you mean about rebelling against the planning of food, meals etc., while managing to be uber organized at work. I feel like that. I have often said I can’t/won’t measure and can’t/won’t go on any sort of restrictive diet because I know myself. I’ll either fail, or become “The Food Nazi”. Neither prospect thrills me. And stress and tension, yes. I just went to the ladies room at my office, and stood there alone for a few minutes, just allowing myself to acknowledge how stressed I really feel.
Hmmmmmmm. Solution? I’d love to hire a cook! A trainer! failing that, it would be nice to enlist the aid of my mother, but that’s impossible.
Keep plugging away at it, and don’t let it get you down? That’s my best shot. Let me know if you figure it out! Blogging here helps at least to keep me focused. Maybe you, too?
RubyJean
round said,
March 3, 2010 @ 1:51 pm
Ini! I am SOOOOOOOOOO glad to see you back!!!!
I am not going to scold you about your social life, don’t worry, I’m just so thrilled to see you back here and to see you thinking about taking care of yourself instead of all the others in your life.
It’s funny to see your discussion about planning (and the comments by the wonderful RubyJean on this topic too). I’ve been realizing over the past several months that all the media yammers endlessly about “diet and exercise” for weight loss, but in fact I think that “planning and motivation” are AT LEAST as important, and maybe even more important.
I also think that you can find a less stressed way to plan. Planning for weight loss at its most basic is just thinking through your day and coming up with some workable solutions to make the not-worst choices. And even just one better choice per day can add up to the courage to make another on another day, and so on, until some of those conscious choices become new habits, and slowly you can build a healthy lifestyle that is natural and fits YOU instead of it being imposed on you from outside.
If you don’t know about how to eat healthily to lose weight, then I support a nutritionist (or any of a number of online diet programs or books). My situation is different — I know perfectly well how to lose weight, it’s just a question of getting myself to actually DO IT that’s hard. Maybe a dietitian would help you.
I’ve read several studies showing that people do better starting weight loss programs when they focus on either diet OR exercise, but not both at once. I think it’s considered to be too many changes too fast, and people end up rebelling. So I’m very much in favor of you only thinking about the diet, and even only small steps at that. When I started back losing weight last year I ONLY thought about the diet side for several months. Eventually I felt like adding in exercise and I did, but I think if I’d tried to do both I would have failed because it seemed like such a huge time commitment and I was tired and already the diet side was quite a lot to manage.
really, really glad to see you back my dear!