song of the road

Someone from my immediate or extended team has gone and told my boss that I am planning to quit. Looks like my woes will continue for some time yet. I hadn’t told anyone except R once long back. I was seriously pissed off. So I called up R and yelled at my lungs’ full capacity. He managed to convince me that he isn’t the one who has ratted. Maybe I am double the fool, but I am convinced it is not him. Most likely it is the other guy in my team on who I depend a lot. They might have guessed it from my studying and planning for the certification. Anyway muddying the water any more, will not help. My boss was grinning when he told me that he has heard in the grape vine that I would move to Bombay in six months or so. I was literally flabbergasted. I couldn’t lie so fast. So I told him I eventually plan to move to Bombay but not soon, not this year. I don’t know how convinced he was. I would talk once more tomorrow to not have any immediate problem. Hopefully this will not be a big problem. But what rotten luck!!!!

I am studying as much as I can. Not doing great there. I guess this new situation will prod me into a faster mode. I hope things don’t go even more downhill from here. I have just enough money in bank to pay off my car loan. After that there won’t be anything. If I do lose the job, it will be bad. The house rent in Bombay is exorbitant. It will be tough to stay there without my having a job. But I don’t think, I will lose the job yet.

Well, life goes on. I am actually able to stay quite unruffled at most of these bumps. I went to buy the 2nd season of Numb3r to console myself by retail therapy. Well, they don’t have it yet. So I bought South Park. I guess I will enjoy it much. But I feel bad that I always take an easy escape route and perhaps so live in a fool’s paradise. But there are these things about which I can’t do much and must keep cool. I am only worried that I perhaps will give up even when there will be situations about which I must do something. Maybe I am actually a coward. or maybe not. But I am now quite inclined to believe it is something in me. I must be really stupid to get in trouble in so many ways.

Love to all my wonderful friends here. I will come back and check in later.