song of the road

so much for being so supportive and loving. I am feeling a little better today. I will be starting with the paper work today. Let’s see how things work out. Went to police yesterday. They agreed to help but honestly not much hope of getting a phone back. On one hand, I do believe if the police wants they can stop every crime here but on the other hand, they are too few in number and in many ways their hands are tied too. Well, all this is my personal thinking.

Everyone, thank you so much again for your kind thoughts. My house is on the 3rd floor. The first floor is an one car parking space. A stair goes up beside it. On the 2nd floor, another teannt stays. We stay on the 3rd floor. Just beside the car parking, there is a biggish courtyard and a small play school on 2nd floor above it. My land lord’s house is intermingled with the school and the yard. It is a bit rambling by Indian standards. But a sweet nice house. I do like it a lot.

The stair opens to a terrace on the 3rd floor. My home or apartment is on the terrace with the main door opening to it. Once that door is locked, no one can come in. People here too have trellis on their windows. We have straight narrow bars on all the windows. Once we open the wood framed glass panes, air and light flow in unimpeded. The bars are closely placed enough so a grown up hand can’t pass through but there are a few a bit far spaced so we can open or shut the window panes which open outside.

So not easily anyone can come in. No one has come in yet. Once we lock the main door, it is like an apartment. The main door has one solid wooden door and one sturdy trellis door. My mom keeps the wooden door open and the trellis door closed during the day. So she can easily see who is outside and open the door accordingly. It’s just because of the terrace, the open stairs and the rambling added-on-when-possible way the house is built, some of the windows are rather accessible. So the thief was trying to pull things from outside, knowing well that by the time we yell and come out, he would slip away easily in the dark. He just has to jump in to any of the gardens or roofs till the hullabaloo dies away. If a theif gets caught, there could be lynching which makes me want the thief to be able to run away. Generally we all are very peaceful but maybe because of our many problems and deprivations, mob fury at times can be devastating.

Anyways, that is enough on that. We are still thinking on making us more secure. Anyways even now no one can come in. We have organized things and all valuables are inside cupboards away from snatching. I slept with my bed side window closed yesterday. But will open one a little farther away today. Apart from that the stair remains open. When we move next time, I will try to get an apartment inside a gated community with security guards.

I do wish that I could have a tantrum. It’s just that I am not feeling angry enough, more scared. Actually lot less scared today. Guess my strength has increased. Most times I cope with unpalatable events by taking a sudden day off and spending the day resting, reading and some times cooking. I have seriously eaten through my leaves and really can’t take any more on whimsy. Though I know I will when I can’t take it any more but I am not yet feeling that bad.

I am doing the fruit day today. I ate papaya, pineapple and chiku (no idea of english name) for breakfast. Chiku is a brown coloured round fruit with a thin skin. The inside brown pulp is juicy and sweet and it has two or three black seeds. I felt hungry by the time I reached office. Had an apple. Still hungry. Now had a cup of green tea and feeling much better. Planning to go through the day on fruit and green tea. Generally I often munch while reading and end up eating more than needed. I was wondering if I should read while eating fruits for dinner. That way I can eat some thing I don’t like that much because my mind will be busy reading.

Love you all. You are trully my pillars.