Back to my rut!
I did manage to go to gym both on Saturday and today. Did about one and a half hour of cardio on Saturday but skipped the abs. Stayed for 5 mins (I think) in the sauna. It was scaldingly hot when I went in. I don’t know which sadist made it that hot. I asked them to reduce it a bit and could stay a while after that. Made it to the gym today as well. Did lower body and abs work out. Skipped cardio. I don’t know why I was feeling so blah. I need to be more motivated. Well, I will work first to make it to the gym every day this week.
Cooked quite some this weenend. Mostly healthy stuff. But not all of it. Made soups for the week. I think I will stick to a healthier routine more easily on a work day. Let’s see.
Not much else happening. A little bit excited about the weekend trip. Hope I like it. I know most of the people going and they do seem lots of fun.
I am trying to be not depressed. I was trying out images of R and his fiancee in my head and I was quite unmoved. So I guess it is only my ego that is hurt. How could he replace me so fast! The whole thing ended only because his family problems and he didn’t feel guilty for 10 days! I am dull and rigid and conservative on many counts but relative to his background I was like a burning flame. Can’t really blame that he got scared. Just as I am not really that hurt because I was anticipating this. I guess without saying much he too was getting ready to get out for some time. On thursday, when we had that conversation, he kind of said the only thing I did was that I shelled half the money needed for his car, so he could buy it without paying any interest to the bank. What a guy! (I had very bad feelings when that car was being bought and my premonitions came true. 
BTW he has paid back all the money - please don’t worry). Anyway, enough said. And it is further proof that maybe I was not so involved after all. Notice how I said nothing about missing his company. 
Hope we all have a great next year. I want us to have the best from life and be able to derserve it too. Let us keep earning our good luck. Love to you all.
PS reminder to myself - copy all book reco. from Ruby’s blog and comments.
round said,
December 31, 2007 @ 8:36 am
Good for you for getting to the gym 2x and for cooking, including for the week ahead. That always helps me out.
I’m amazed at your ability to see the situation w R so objectively. That takes a lot of maturity and self-awareness, and I do agree that ego may be the primary injured party here, especially as you don’t seem to miss HIM as a person so much. It’s very wise to be able to see that, especially so close to the news.
I loved what you wrote about “earning our good luck” for 2008. I think so often we think we “deserve” good luck without thinking about EARNING it. Good reminder.
julieesg said,
December 31, 2007 @ 11:46 am
I’ve been trying to keep a few healthy, pre-cooked items on hand in my freezer for those nights when things come up and I don’t have time to put a good dinner together. It’s saved me on more than one occasion from running out for junk food. Nice job on your workouts!