November 21
Well.. Thank you all sooo much for all the kind comments. You did make me feel so much better. I really appreciate your love and warmth. In such a short time, I have started to depend on you.
The new guy is kind of okay. We chatted some yesterday. I think we would meet for dinner on Saturday. None of the weekdays are looking good. Let’s see how it goes. I feel like I am cheating on R. But I think even R would advise me to do this, which of course will make me feel more like not doing this. 
I agree that being water is the best possible course now. If I can like someone else, I guess I can move on. If I can’t, I am okay too. My mom too will settle down sooner or later. As we say in this part of the world - “no can go against their fate”. I know how that sounds, so we have this other saying too - “a deer will not enter the mouth of a sleeping lion”. I remember someone saying that for every proverb, there is a counter proverb, which is rather true.
Anyways, I am feeling nice and good this morning. I guess this is the aftermath of exercising. Made it to gym today. S messaged me 5 mins before 7, asking me to be there by 7. I made it there by 7:10 am and he said “did my sms wake you up?”. I said. “of course and then I teleported myself here”. the guy who works out with S just after me, has perversely started coming early everyday to bug me. S would often try to manage two diverse work outs together. Though I shouldn’t really complain, as I often get lots of extra time and attention from S.
I am stuck at 69.7 kg. Again can’t complain with the amount of work I am putting in. Need to do lot more cardio. Must get on it from tomorrow. and I need to brush my teeth the minute I finish my dinner. I have noticed that if I do that, I don’t feel like snacking later.
The eating this weekend is going to be bad. One would be that dinner with the new guy. and I need to plan something and take S for lunch one of these days too. S is so fussy about eating, I am yet to figure out where to take him. I don’t want to go to one of his regular jaunts and would rather go somewhere a little high end. But let’s see. Maybe next weekend. Apart from this, my team and I go out for lunch every friday. I need to think hard and do something to not sobatge my weight loss too badly. 
Well, that’s about it for today. Everyone have a great day towards meeting your goal. In fact having a goal in itself is such a fulfilling thing.
rubyjean said,
November 21, 2007 @ 12:03 pm
Talk about a nugget (gold) of truth…”having a goal in itself is such a fulfilling thing.” I hadn’t thought of it quite that way, but now I will, so thank you very very much!
We go out to lunch on Fridays too - I usually go with my colleagues and I would hope friends Jacob and Rajesh. I try to stick to light and healthy things.
Hope your Saturday date is LOVELY.
Here’s a hug! {{}} Ruby
anngirl said,
November 21, 2007 @ 12:53 pm
Wow Iniya - interesting that this new dude has showed up in your life and he’s actually OK - no major issues. I am hopeful that you will be able to move on because it’s so difficult when in-laws are not receptive to you (been there - done that) as it wears on your relationship badly. As I get older, I am realizing that passion is fantastic - but honestly - stability is better. I know it sounds a bit like defeat - but having been through passion and having it not work out has left an indelible stain on me. I’m glad you’re giving new dude a chance to see if you may like him - drama free iniya - that’s what we want ultimately.
Have a wonderful time. Sometimes we women have a clarity that is surprising…but the heart is a difficult partner.
Take care - you too deserve peace, tranquility and stability.
