November 19
Did not have a good weekend at all. My mom is now full time on the case of my marriage. She is now really messing up my peace. I know she means well but it can be hard to take at times. Let’s see how things work out. I am trying to hang on to my sanity.
Was not able to talk to R whole of yesterday. Could get in touch today. He is also going through his hell. His parents are reacting terribly. Anyway enough of all this.
Went to gym today. My t.o.m. started yesterday. Was quite tired while working out. Still work out was quite well. I used weights while doing ab exercises - both for upper ab crunches and reverse curls. It was quite good. Did about 15 mins of cardio too. Not much progress made towards the 3 kg goal yet. Ate bad yesterday. Even now I was eating a bar of chocolate.
Had another argument with mom after I came back from gym. So called in sick today. Hopefully staying at home, I will be able to sort myself out and would feel better tomorrow. Just couldn’t bear the thought of driving all the way to work and staying there whole day. I need to get out of this depression soon. Or I will screw up work which will be terrible. Hopefully things will work out somehow.
well… that’s all for now. I might login later. Hope you all are having a better day in reaching your goals and generally living life!
ellabella said,
November 19, 2007 @ 9:30 am
Oh, so sorry that things are so unpleasant for you. I’m sure your mother means well and wants only the best for you - as she sees it - but life does become a lot simpler for everyone when we stop trying to impose our will on others, no matter whether we think we’re doing it in their own best interests or not. There comes a point, as a parent, when you have to tell yourself that you’ve done your best raising your child, and that hopefully, you’ve helped them to develop enough common sense to make some good decisions for themselves. And even that doesn’t mean they’ll never mess up - we parents certainly did our share of messing up, after all. I’d love to have a long chat with your mother, my dear Iniya, but since I can’t, my advice to you is to not argue with her - try to be *water* when she is trying to impose her will - just run over and around the impediments and continue to flow peacefully. Love her because she wants the best for you, and try your best not to react angrily yourself. In the meantime, know that I think you’re doing wonderfully - you have a responsible job, you’re taking good care of yourself, and you are a kind and loving person. I can’t hug you in person, but I’m sending a nice warm one just the same.
Feel better, okay?
soclose said,
November 19, 2007 @ 1:16 pm
Sorry you’re having such a rough time of it. Consider yourself hugged by me too. Sounds like you at least got a pretty good work-out.
Hopefully your day off will work wonders for your emotional balance.
lynard said,
November 19, 2007 @ 3:23 pm
Ditto from me. So sorry to hear of your not–so-great weekend. Hang in there. hugs.
Lyn