song of the road

I need to figure out what should be my headings. I go back from work so late and need to get up early for the gym, that I hardly hardly ever get to blog in the night. I can then think and write peacefully. I don’t know how my day is - so early on the day.

Anyway, went to gym today. Did an hour of cardio. 15 mins of cycling, 15 mins of cross trainer and then 30 mins of treadmill. also some warmups and abs. S is not back yet. So boring without him. But I must behave like a grownup and do my workouts without needing supervision. But S is so much fun. Though the poor guy often gets exasperated with me.

Whenever S goes home, it is like this. I think he just doesn’t want to come back. He doesn’t like it so much here. It reminds me of when I left home for the first time for school - I was about 16. I actually used to cry to sleep every night. That was so bad. After a whole year of crying, sickness, bad grades, my parents put my bro to school in the same city and 3 of us stayed together. Poor dad had to live alone for quite a few years. It’s awesome what our parents gave up time and again and again for us.

 Later again when I left home for work, it was much better.  I was nervous with my history of homesickness. But I kept on getting awesome roomies and made best friends and been happy over all. Once when I was living alone, I watched one scary ghost movie. I was very scared for a month or two. I kept feeling someone is watching me. And I would have those lurid dreams which would be 10 times scarier than the movie.

Oh ok! back to my day again. Yesterday left work early and could reach home by 7:30 pm. Talked a bit with mom. Then read my Sarah Paretsky once more. Though I was a good girl and went to bed by 10:30 pm. Still was late getting up and reached gym by 7:30 am. Once S is back, this won’t work. Need to find out some way to hit the sack relatively early.

 69.6 kg today. Not so bad after two days of bunking gym. Yesterday was better food-wise. I was not so hungry. Hope that happens today too. :)  My brekkie and lunch generally go well. I start slipping during the evening snacks. Again generally a good dinner. But often when I am back from work dog tired, it’s as if nothing can fill me up - I feel so hungry. It’s a crazy life!