September 14 - Friday Night
Well.. it doesn’t look like I will be able to blog everyday. I would love to though. It’s been such a busy week. Hopefully I will be able to nail my routine soon and make time every night for blogging.
I wonder… I am not married, I am not responsible for kids.. why am I so short of time still? I mean I get up by 6 am, drive to gym by 6:45 am; work out till about 9; reach home by 9:30 (too much traffic on my way back); then start for work by 10:15 am and back from work around 9:30 pm. It’s not that I am spending inordinately more time at work too. It’s the bad traffic again. I actually work from 11 to 8 or 8:30. that’s not at all much. anyway back home, eat dinner by 10. there’s a good sitcom on tv around that time, so mostly watch that. try to pack in 15-30 mins of blogging then and in bed by 10:30 pm. so if i am off anywhere by as less as 15 mins, my whole schedule starts screwing up. grrrr….
Somedays I would feel down and hopeless… I would have to read something before bed.. and of course I would end up snacking a bit.. though the good thing is that for some reason I feel lot less hungry and lot more full most of the time :)… anyway the reading makes me sleep late.. next day I would be tired and irritable in gym… feel sleepy throughout the day at work… have to do most things twice to do correctly… start panicking with the work load… but just reading a book for a couple of hours should not have such dire impact now, should it?… shouldn’t my routine be more flexible… i mean i am doing NOTHING at all… and my days are gone… one after another after another….
I don’t know why I am feeling so restless today… it’s raining whole day today… in fact from yesterday evening it’s raining on and off… I got completely drenched while coming back from work… didn’t take my car to office and returned with a friend, riding pilion on his bike… the road was like a river… a stupid biker rode past too fast and threw up water higher than my head (I now realize how inadequate my english is 
)… not only I got wet completely, some water went inside my nose too 
… I was stunned for a second but then couldn’t stop grinning…
Worked from home today for a change… it is so nice to watch the rain from my bed where I am lying down with my hands resting on my pillow and my laptop in front of me… the wind is cool and the color is green…
S said something nice today.. He said among all the gym members exercising with him, I am the one always on time and also the most regular one.. It brought on a big smile on my face… The fact of the matter is, (I don’t know how, all I can say it is sheer good luck and I hope and pray that the luck holds), I love going to gym.. maybe my life is so screwed up otherwise, going to gym is no less fun than say going to a movie.. In gym, I can simply switch on the music and keep walking or cycling… and it does feel good to be able to finish up the work outs… other days there is S to bear the complete responsibility of deciding what work out I need to do… I can simply do what he says without having to think at all… and that’s so liberating… the alternate days when I don’t work out with S, I have the exercise card which I can follow with my brain closed and that too S takes care of changing frequently… So behind the facade of a financially and for most part emotionally independent woman, is someone who would love to be led… only at times, I guess
Again on another topic (I just can’t stop typing today), there was a fitness challenge in the gym this week. With my characteristic fear of competitions, that too one which is physically challenging, I didn’t listen to S and flat out refused to take part. But after saw it happening, I did feel I should have taken part. I would have needed to do squats, crunches, leg raises, running/walking on treadmill and a few more things perhaps. I wouldn’t have won by any means but I could have successfully completed. When they have it again (I think four months down the line), I must take part this time. It would be fun. I don’t know why must I be so scared of making a fool of myself. I can’t hide the truth forever, after all. :)
Well.. on that note, good night. let me go and see, what’s happening on the 20/20 cricket mathes in south africa.
