Why lose?

Why do I want to lose weight, get healthy? A never-ending list that I will add on as I go along.

I don’t want to waste the rest of my twenties hiding in the shadows.. holding the camera… untagging Facebook pictures… avoiding reality… I want to LIVE

I want to be able to be at a healthy weight so I can conceive healthy babies in the future. (When I was at my peak weight, I stopped having TOM for a year…. only when I lost some weight did it slowly come back… I was so scared)

 I want to be able to partake in outdoor activities I normally shy away from. I want to parasail, scuba dive, snorkel, hike, kayak, ski, snowboard….and look good doing it.

I want to shock the disbelievers and the haters who made me cry with their snide remarks and backstabbing. I want them to eat their own words and be jealous of how HOT I LOOK.

I want to take beautiful wedding pictures and pictures of myself in general. I stopped scrapbooking 2 years ago because I felt ugly and no good pictures of me. I want to document my life and look back when I’m old and say “dam I looked pretty hot”..

I want to go into ANY store and fit into clothes without having to tug and layer over the folds. I want to be able to wear a strapless dress/shirt without wearing a cardigan/jacket/sweater to cover my arms.

I want to take control of my life again. I want to feel empowered, confident, and full of life. I hate feeling helpless and disgusting. I want to be proud of myself.

 I want my ID to reflect my real weight and I stop lying to people about my weight. I want to fix my emotional hangups with food and people. I want to address my REAL issues and stop running away from them. I want to be a joy to be around and not pull people down with me (e.g. my bf).

I want to be healthy both emotionally, mentally and physically. I don’t want to have the risks associated with obesity and cause my family pain and additional stress. I want to be a good influence to people around me and encourage positive change. I want to INSPIRE

I want to be comfortable telling people my weight proudly. I want to be one of those people who can chime in on weightloss/diet talk/food talk comfortably without feeling like the world is judging me. I want to be a better friend, sister, daughter and future mother.