Ugh the disappointment. I saw pictures from like two years back and I look so nice (I’d gone on a weight loss plan then as well and had ended up losing quite some. excetp I gained it al back (and more) because….because I just quit. I thought I looked nice enough and then I stopped the “diet” and got back to eating junk. So I’ve learned from this reflection that keeping myself on leaves will never help me lose weight. I need to find out a steady diet which I can eat throughout my life. just need to be a bit more picky about junk food while I’m in the losing phase. Very picky! Which is why I had a vegetable and humus wrap at the mall when I could have had like donuts, coffee, muffins, ice cream, pasta, pizza, burgers and fries. Well I did have fries….10 fries…..i couldnt resist, my mom was having new york fries in front of me….! they tasted so good!

K, I need to stop thinking about how far away my goal is, but concentrate on my mini goals. and I need to stop complaining. and looking at myself in the mirror as religiously as I do. ditto for measuring myself. I have only lost a few pounds and obviously will not be able to see a major difference as yet. which is frustrating because I can;t help but wonder how many pounds I’d have to lose before I can fit into my high school jeans. which i haven’t been able to fit into since 1.5 years. But I wont keep that from making me as determined as I was when I started this blog!

Quote:

“Don’t let what you can’t do interfere with what you can do.”

From now on I will only measure and weigh myself once a week.