Arrgh today has been one of most unproductive days so far. I woke up and measured myself, I have lost a little around my chest and thighs so thats good. I should have goneto the gym but was too stressed about my courses that I felt too guilty to go to the gym. I need to do well this semester!!! So I have to come up with balance. I have three more midterms coming up in november, thank God they are not in the same week! phew. 2 major lab reports, tons of assignments…I need to start studying from now so I dont screw up the finals. which I wil if I let all the material pile up.

So I found out that my best friend finally got her visa to attend university in Chicago! where, btw, I will be going next year! and I’m so excited, I might actually get to meet her there!! It’s been forever since I’ve seen her! and I was just thinking about how awesome it owuld be if I can be near my goal weight when I meet her! As and soon as I let mysef get too ecited about it, I became more and more anxious when I realized how far awy that goal is =( ….maybe thats why I ended up eating so much today.

breakfast: 1 egg, half a sausage, bowl of cereal, granola bar

dinner: 2 servings rice, fried chicken and eggplant curry.

what I’m more frustrated about is not even that I ate so much. I ate a lot of crappy stuff. FRIED chicken and that much RICE. ugghh! I was doing so well, I almost didnt even need tea in the morning anymore. but now that I’ve ate so much, I have to drink coffee so the caffeine can hep me tackle my assignment which is due tonight at midnight. plus I keep forgetting I need to drink water constantly. I get dangerousl dehydrated everytime I attempt a weight loss regime. This time, oh yes, this time it would be my last :) because this time? I won’t give up.