round, thank you so much for your comment. I think we must be a lot alike… I have heard a lot of people say that they had trouble getting past the 180 mark.  May be it is because of the fact that the clothes are easier to buy, and yes, i do feel so much more normal than I use to.  I feel much healther and energetic, but its just not where I want to end up.  I want to move forward and lose the rest of this weight so bad.  I appreciate your words. thank you

I do believe i “eat” my emotions and problems instead of talking them out.  Honestly though, I dont see any other solution. my problems have no solution, at least not at the moment.  but, i know eating them is no solution either, and its just causing me more stress and depression. 

next week we are going camping, for thanksgiving…. I really dont know how I will stay on track with a camping trip, but I will try.  wish me luck.

today I did 40 minutes elyptical, 10 min stair stepper, and half hour of upper body weights

B- fruit smoothie with nonfat yogurt, flax seeds and soy milk

L- veggie riblet, asparagus

S- cottage cheese double, apple

D- tomato soup

S- rice crispies with skim milk

B- fruit smoothie with nonfat yogurt flax seeds, strawberries, blueberries and banana

L- healthy choice spinach, portabella parmesean meal

S- sunflower seeds, cottage cheese double

D- subway turkey on wheat 6 inch with vegies and mustard only

S- coffee, 100 cal pack natural almonds

S- weight control oatmeal package

Dh is getting really worried lately about me getting hit on at work. He never use to have to worry aobut this sort of thing because it never happened. Now all of a sudden he is obsessed with the fact that he thinks I am going to cheat on him!! this is becoming such a problem that I am consumed with it daily. have any of you guys had to deal with this after weight loss, its almost like he liked it better when i was fat because he wasn’t threatened by other people.  I keep reassuring him that I am doing this for my health and for my own satisfaction of the way I look (and for him) but not for anyone else!  I just hope it is a phase and it doesn’t get any worse.   he has always been smaller (in weight) than me and now he is bigger (not obese, but a little over weight) so the tables have turned. I also made the mistake of telling him about someone hitting on me at work. I was a little flattered by it, because I am just not used to this sort of thing, and I also thought it was right for me to let him know. but that might have triggered this whole thing! ugh….. what to do?   any thoughts?

oh, Beerab….no offense taken at all…no worries

I was just thinking to myself the other day (like, i had a total conversation with myself, lol) how it is so twisted the way we educate our kids. I mean of course it is important to learn of math, science, history ect…. and to have a good education in order to have a good future. but, to have a good future in what way? monitarily? what good is money, if our health is so bad? Isn’t our health the MOST important? so why dont we emphasize good eating habits, more nutrition classes and more focus on physical activity? Its just sad and backward thinking to me.

 answer to beerab’s  question, yes we have bikes and I am going to start taking my kids on more bike rides. we do alot of bike rides now, but not on a regular basis.  If we dont bike, I am going to at least take him on runs/ walks to get the boy moving.  Yes, 10 yr olds should be around 80-100lbs. He (my son) is a little taller than most 10 yr olds, but he is still overweight even for his height.  He does eat too much junk.  I am not the one that brings in into the house either. My DH is the culpret with that. he has gotten better because of all the nagging I do about it, but the junk is still there in small doses.  His thinking is that the rest of the family shouldn’t have to “suffer” because I am eating healthy.  dont ya love that….. like eating good healthy food is suffering or something ;)  what ever….

this swine flu thing is starting to really scare me. I am a respiratory therapist and work in the ICU’s often.  Just in the past month we have had 2 deaths of 50 some yr old who were otherwise healthy, who died of swine flu.  There is one more about to die tonight in ICU on a ventilator.  She was healthy until she got swine flu.  It’s scaring the crap out of me, I hope they get a vaccine soon.  we have to wear super strength isolation masks and such, but its still worrysome.  anyway, Im at work, so I better get off here.  have a good night

so, the other day my little boy (he’s 10 ) weighed himself.  he has gained quite a bit of weight this summer.  He is a chubby little fart ;)  He has my genes (poor guy).  at 10 yrs old, he weighs 141 lbs!! the last time he was in the 120’s (which i thought was too high) but now its getting really scary!  I just dont want him to have a hard time at school with kids being cruel to him. I want his life to be happy, and of course I want him to be healthy! I know that this is a hard subject, because I also dont want him to be a fanatic about his weight, or feel that I am being overly judgemental or nagging about it. So, i just touched on the subject a little bit. I told him that he just needs to be more active and try not to eat as much junk food as he usually does. Im sure ( being young) that the weight will come off easy if he just does these few things.  I want him to drink more water and less soda and cool aid too.  so, I am getting him his own water bottle and starting to take him on walks/ jogs/ and bike rides on my evenings off.  Any suggestions with how to go about sliming him down would be appreciated.  I just dont want him to have issues with his weight like I do, but i also dont want him to be overly worried about losing weight either.  I just want the best for him, ya know.  And buying clothes for him has become such an ordeal.  I can’t find clothes that fit him at all!! If they fit his waist, they are too long! its so annoying. I am going to old navy this year in hopes that I may have better luck.  even the walmart husky brands are too small (and there isn’t much selection).  ugh….

so, my spin class instructer gave me a new pair of cycle shoes, you know the ones that clip onto the pedels. well, they are nice, but I am having a very hard time getting them clipped onto the peddles correctly.  I am thankful for them because I know they are expensive shoes, so I just hope I can figure them out. I was watching a yoga class on tv the other day and was thinking I might want to try it some time.  I never though I would like such a thing, but it really does look like it could help build strength and balance.  maybe once I lose a little more weight. well I need to catch up on my blogs. have a nice night chicks

my weigh in saturday was good.

SW= 305

Last weigh in= 185

this weigh in= 182.8!!  so I am going in the right direction even though it is slow these days.   I was doing good with the no sugar thing until my neices b day last sunday.  she had these awesome looking cupcakes that I had to have.  so yeah.  I caved and it triggered some mad cravings this week.  but, hey… this is expected and I just have to realize this is going to happen and get on with my life.    My computer has been abducted by 3 little kids this summer, so I hardly ever get on the thing at home. plus it is one of those tiny little notebook things that is slow as a turtle. Its very frustrating to try to blog or do anything on that thing. hopefully when our financial situation improves (if ever) I can get a normal size computer again, lol….. but until then, I may not be blogging as much as usual.  maybe just at work.  but, I am still going strong and determined to get to 135 this year

hope you all are doing well. ttyl