why did i wait so long?

the last couple months have been hell!!! I have had no will to write in this blog, and dont know when I will be able to get back, mainly because I am focusing on my family life right now and not so much my weight loss. unfortunetely, when disaster happens, its hard to stay focused.  My husband is on drugs! I found out last month, he is taking pills. he knows people I dont know, he lies about where he is, who he’s with, and money! he steals money from me and so many other things.  I need to divorce him, but its hard with three kids. we have been married for 10 yrs! I dont even begin to know how to be single.  my kids are still little and they dont even understand what’s going on.  I am at a loss. I am depressed and unable to function properly. every day is a struggle just to get out of bed and go to work. I HATE him and its eating me up inside.  I think I may kick him out today, but that leaves me with so many other problems. I cant live with him like this anymore. I want to eat healthy and work out, but its just hard enouph getting out of bed. this christmas was one of the worst I have had in a long long time. I hope every one else had a good one. talk to you later