why did i wait so long?

I just went on my progress page and noticed that I’ve only lost 7 lbs in the last six months!!!! that is just unacceptable to me.  I knew I was stahling and not progressing, but I think I was in denial at how long it has been.  How depressing! something has got to change.  My binging and eating crap is what has to change. my mind set has to change. I have to get with the program, or I will never lose any more weight.  I know maintaining is still great, but its not where I want to be. I want to get to a normal healthy weight of about 135-140!!

round, thank you so much for your comment. I think we must be a lot alike… I have heard a lot of people say that they had trouble getting past the 180 mark.  May be it is because of the fact that the clothes are easier to buy, and yes, i do feel so much more normal than I use to.  I feel much healther and energetic, but its just not where I want to end up.  I want to move forward and lose the rest of this weight so bad.  I appreciate your words. thank you

I do believe i “eat” my emotions and problems instead of talking them out.  Honestly though, I dont see any other solution. my problems have no solution, at least not at the moment.  but, i know eating them is no solution either, and its just causing me more stress and depression. 

next week we are going camping, for thanksgiving…. I really dont know how I will stay on track with a camping trip, but I will try.  wish me luck.

today I did 40 minutes elyptical, 10 min stair stepper, and half hour of upper body weights

B- fruit smoothie with nonfat yogurt, flax seeds and soy milk

L- veggie riblet, asparagus

S- cottage cheese double, apple

D- tomato soup

S- rice crispies with skim milk

wow, its been a while since ive wrote on this blog.  No excuses really, just not feeling bloggy.  Things have been pretty hectic around my world lately and I have a feeling its taking a toll on my eating habits and weight loss, or lack there of.  I notice there are a lot of new blogs here, so most of you probably dont even know me. but basically i’ll give a short review of my story. my name is Heidi, I started losing weight in april of 08 and have lost 130 lbs so far.  the last few months I have basically been maintaining my weight. I still want to lose 35-40 more lbs, but it seems almost impossible at this point. I am a calorie counter and I work out about 4 days a week.  working out for me is the easy part. I love spin classes and I love the way I feel after a work out.  It is sometimes hard to get to the gym, but once I am there, i feel great.  Eating on the other hand is still a major issue.  the stress in my life at this point is making me want to binge a lot!!! last week I spent 3 days eating crap!!! pumpkin ice cream with cool whip, nacho’s, popcorn, cheese its (my major weakness), a hamberger, lasagna. you name it….. it sucks! when I do this, i usually gain about 5 lbs.  I then lose it over the next couple weeks, but i believe this is why i am maintaining.  I will start to lose more weight, then binge and gain it back, then lose it again. this happens over and over again, and this has been my story for the past few months.  DH and I have been arguing a lot lately which is complicated and i dont want to bore people with the problems, but this is making me want to eat.  I have been having lots of financial problems, car issues, and working over time to try to give my kids a decent christmas…  all these are excuses as to why i am binging. I know if I just put my mind to it, i can control this, but its just hard!!! so, i just thought i would come on here and share.  I will try to come here more often.  hope everyone has a great thanksgiving and try not to eat too much.  (I know, that day will be a difficult one)  shit who am I kidding, this whole week is just going to be torture.ugh…..  good luck chicks