why did i wait so long?

so, after not having sugar (white bread and pasta included) for more than 2 weeks….. I caved on sunday. My hubby made this spinach dip that is just irresistable. the spinach dip is spread onto italian bread.  so, I thought…. I’ve been doing so good that I “deserve” some of this, right?  wrong!!!!!   It was good, dont get me wrong. But was it worth the horrible cravings that made me go into a deep depression all week?  NO!! definetely not worth it.  I mean, I was seriously on a roll without sugar. No craving for sugar, it was wonderful.  Then after the bread incident I had uncontrollable cravings for all things sugar. Ice cream, frosting, cookies, bread…….All that shit, it was all I could think about for days.  This put me into a depressed mood, because I felt so out of control.  Like I seriously had a problem.  I mean, your days should not be filled with thoughts of food, consuming relentless, day dreams of food.  Its just crazy!! I also felt like I was missing out, like I shouldn’t have to go without this stuff (it just isn’t fair).  Over and over again in my head.  I felt so much better when my body was without sugar, and without the cravings for sugar.  I have totally learned my lesson here.   I feel better without sugar, and my brain functions better when I am without sugar.  I can control my eating much better without sugar…so,    NO MORE SUGAR!!! plain and simple.  I can’t have this stuff, obviously I have issues with sugar.  It is addicting and has a hold on me, so just like drug addicts have to go cold turkey (not just have it once in a while) I have to go cold turkey with sugar.  LESSON LEARNED!