why did i wait so long?

hello guys, just wanted to check in and say hi.  I am doing good these days food and exercise wise.   work has been hectic.  we have been dealing with a lot of the swine flu outbreaks lately which is scary..  I work in the ICU’s and so far this month we have had 4 swine flu cases and one guy has died already.  I am just hoping that I stay healthy and can keep it away from my kids. we are of course protecting ourselves, but one of my co worker’s kids just got tested positive for swine flu. ugh…its just scary. 

so, my spin class instructer gave me a new pair of cycle shoes, you know the ones that clip onto the pedels. well, they are nice, but I am having a very hard time getting them clipped onto the peddles correctly.  I am thankful for them because I know they are expensive shoes, so I just hope I can figure them out. I was watching a yoga class on tv the other day and was thinking I might want to try it some time.  I never though I would like such a thing, but it really does look like it could help build strength and balance.  maybe once I lose a little more weight. well I need to catch up on my blogs. have a nice night chicks

just wanted to stop in and say I am still here, still moving on down the scale

my weigh in saturday was good.

SW= 305

Last weigh in= 185

this weigh in= 182.8!!  so I am going in the right direction even though it is slow these days.   I was doing good with the no sugar thing until my neices b day last sunday.  she had these awesome looking cupcakes that I had to have.  so yeah.  I caved and it triggered some mad cravings this week.  but, hey… this is expected and I just have to realize this is going to happen and get on with my life.    My computer has been abducted by 3 little kids this summer, so I hardly ever get on the thing at home. plus it is one of those tiny little notebook things that is slow as a turtle. Its very frustrating to try to blog or do anything on that thing. hopefully when our financial situation improves (if ever) I can get a normal size computer again, lol….. but until then, I may not be blogging as much as usual.  maybe just at work.  but, I am still going strong and determined to get to 135 this year

hope you all are doing well. ttyl

so, after not having sugar (white bread and pasta included) for more than 2 weeks….. I caved on sunday. My hubby made this spinach dip that is just irresistable. the spinach dip is spread onto italian bread.  so, I thought…. I’ve been doing so good that I “deserve” some of this, right?  wrong!!!!!   It was good, dont get me wrong. But was it worth the horrible cravings that made me go into a deep depression all week?  NO!! definetely not worth it.  I mean, I was seriously on a roll without sugar. No craving for sugar, it was wonderful.  Then after the bread incident I had uncontrollable cravings for all things sugar. Ice cream, frosting, cookies, bread…….All that shit, it was all I could think about for days.  This put me into a depressed mood, because I felt so out of control.  Like I seriously had a problem.  I mean, your days should not be filled with thoughts of food, consuming relentless, day dreams of food.  Its just crazy!! I also felt like I was missing out, like I shouldn’t have to go without this stuff (it just isn’t fair).  Over and over again in my head.  I felt so much better when my body was without sugar, and without the cravings for sugar.  I have totally learned my lesson here.   I feel better without sugar, and my brain functions better when I am without sugar.  I can control my eating much better without sugar…so,    NO MORE SUGAR!!! plain and simple.  I can’t have this stuff, obviously I have issues with sugar.  It is addicting and has a hold on me, so just like drug addicts have to go cold turkey (not just have it once in a while) I have to go cold turkey with sugar.  LESSON LEARNED!