why did i wait so long?

round, I feel for ya.  I dont think I could go w/o fruit.  they are my friend.

So weigh in was saturday.  It went pretty well. I am down another one lb.  Here lately, that is what I expect.  I guess now that I am down to the last 50 lbs, this is just the way it’s going to go.  Oh well, at least its going in the right direction.  Last week= 186.8,  this week= 185.6.   I officially have 50 lbs to lose until I reach my ultimate goal.   It has been 12 days since I have had any “junk food”.  meaning sugary crap, chips, fast food…you know what I mean.  I feel great! even though the weight is coming off slowly, My pants are fitting much better!  I am wearing a Large in my scrubs now.  No more X involved, woohoo!!!  and size 16’s are fitting pretty well these days.  I think i may faint when I get out of the teens.  Financially my life is a big pile of dog shit! but, I am trying not to dwell on these issues, because I am doing everything I can to better my situation… there is nothing else I can do to change the circumstances, so I refuse to let it destroy me.  

Good news from my obgyn…. still waiting for my dermatologist results (I had a spot removed from my forehead last week).  It was just a freckle that kept getting bigger, so she wanted to test it. So, I am getting my new years resolutions taken care of (going to the Dr. appts).  that feels good.  I always used to avoid these things before. 

 I have been thinking a lot about my excess skin.  I know this is a worry for most of us.  I have lost 120lbs…. you would think that I would be like a shriveled up prune by now, LOL… but honestly it is better than I had expected it to be. I still can’t wait to see what it will look like at my goal weight (I will decide about a tummy tuck at that point), but my arm skin is shrinking quite nicely.  Of course I will never look like I did when I was 15 yrs old, but I also wont need a wheel barrel to haul my skin around either ;)   After 3 kids, you can imagine my belly is an issue, but I will not risk having surgery unless I really can not stand it.  so far, my belly and inner thighs are the worst part, which I can cover up with clothes.. yey.  so, I guess we shall see how it goes.

B- oatmeal with soy milk

L- lean cuisine meal (at work)

S- greek yogurt

D- white bean soup (home made)

S- cottage cheese, navel orange

update =  got the call from the dermatologist.. the results came back as an abnormal mole…which means, not much to worry about.  She said it was good to get rid of it, but it wasnt cancer. so, I am happy about that.