I need a pep talk June 10, 2009
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Im in a funk. I just feel down today and am just sick of everything! Im sick of never having any extra money, or even enouph to pay our bills. Hubby is going to school and I know that it is to better our situation, but it is so hard to stay positive. I work ALL THE TIME!! it seems like I live at work. I am working over time. which I am thankful for because we REALLY need the money, but then I feel like I am never home, never with the kids and am not working out as long or as hard as I would be if I had the day off. The stresses of all this is making me want to eat A LOT. I am finding it harder and harder to stay away from those bad foods. My birthday was sunday and of course they had food and cake for me at work. I ate way too much saturday, and monday. I feel like I am losing my groove. My weight loss is slowing down so much that its really scaring me. I am hardly even losing anything any more. It SUCKS!! I am sick of bouncing around 187-190. I really need to stop cheating on my plan. I know that is the only way I am going to be able to lose more weight. I still work out 4-5 times a week so I know its not the exercise that is stoping me. Its what I put in my mouth. I have to be on plan EVERY SINGLE DAY from now on, or it just isn’t going to happen for me. My body is definetely not budging when I eat crap. Before (when I was heavier) even if I cheated a little on my plan, I would still lose weight…but now forget it. If I cheat at all. my weight stalls or goes up. Its very sad. I just have to accept that I must eat right all the time or I will never get to my goal weight. I cant keep screwing around here. I am not happy at the weight I am now. Dont get me wrong. I am happy with my progress, and very proud of my accomplishment so far, but I do not want to stop here. I dont want to be overweight any more. I want to be a normal healthy weight. And I want to stay that way for the rest of my life. My love affair with food has got to be over. No more cookies, or cheeze its, ice cream, and hamburgers. NO MORE!!! My desire to be thin is greater than my desire to eat this junk. I have to stay focused on my goal and stop this stupid snacking on things I dont need. Food used to be my main priority. It use to be what I looked forward to, it was my best friend. I cant live like that anymore. I have to let go of that relationship. I need to think of food as fuel for my body and nothing more than that. I dont NEED ice cream or frosted cookies to live. It doesn’t make me happy or make stress go away. It makes things worse! It is the enemy. When they say that weight loss is harder the smaller you get, they sure weren’t kidding. It is SO MUCH HARDER NOW!! I just have to focus on the prize. stay focused and stop straying from my plan, I will prevail!
Here is your pep talk:
This is just one of those hurdles you have to overcome. It’s not going to last forever, as long as you maintain then you ARE winning the battle. Your hubby will finish school and when he does things will be much better for your family- you CAN stick it out! You can do it girl!
Today is a new day - just start fresh. You can do it! Look how far you’ve come so far - it’s amazing
I could have written the same first few sentences. I’m only assuming this is one of those things we have to deal with and it comes and goes. Just riding it out and waiting for the express train to pick me up again. I’ve been in a funk, Sometimes happy, sometimes unhappy, and not sure what I’m doing. Money and relationships is what most of it is about and then there’s the whole diet and exercise thing on top of that.
Thanks for your comments. Here’s a reply to one of them.
no, Heidi, even though I question my abilities, I do not intend to give in, give up, or quit blogging. And I definitely won’t pull a sterling, and leave without a word.
Hugs!! I can relate to how your feeling- I having been slipping lately and not feeling like tracking- I am switching my plan up by going with simply filling which means I only have to track those items not on the list with my weekly 35 points. I am hoping this will jump start my motivation with something new in my plan.
I think several of us are feeling this way right now! We need to unite and kick this weight in the rear and get focused and back on track, eh? I know we can do it!