warning….this post sucks :( March 20, 2009
Im stressing out!! I tossed and turned and hardly slept today, just to wake up with a headache and on the verge of tears. I think the little stresses in life just keep adding up in my brain, and I think i might explode soon. I hate to pour all this emotional crap all over my diet blog but I feel better when I write things out. I know that things could be worse (and have been worse) in my life, but it just seems like a bunch of little things that are going on right now are overwhelming me. What makes them overwhelming is that I cant do anything about them. I have pretty much no control over the situation. 1st off and main source of my stress is our finances. Before the economy took a crap we were doing fairly well. I still had to budget but we had what we needed, had good credit, were pretty secure. Now dh hardly has any work and is about to have none when he starts school (cullinary). That puts a lot of pressure on me to pay all of the bills and work overtime. I am not dealing with this well. I use to work part time, now I am working full time. not dealing well!!! We are also going to have to move because we can’t afford this house much longer.. I HATE MOVING!!! WITH A PASSION! we have moved a lot since coming to florida and at first I think it was fun for the kids…new experiences, new neighbors, new environment…ect but now its starting to wear on them. we never move far enouph to change their schools but its still stressful. We have to move because we can’t afford this house on my salary alone :( I LOVE THIS HOUSE. LOVE IT!!!! I am going to be soooo upset to leave this house. not dealing well! now, i know i bitch a lot about my sleep issues. I work midnights and have a horrible time sleeping at normal hours on my days off. its virtually impossible. This stresses me out, because I feel like a vampire. I hardly ever see the sun. also, I usually am waking up right when the kids come home, then I have to go to the gym before they close at 10pm. This takes up time with my family. ugh….I just dont know what to do. I think I may have to find a 24 hr gym so that I can work out at night when they are sleeping. this would be fine except that I am totally loving my spin classes, and dont think any gym will have classes in the middle of the night. stressfull!!!! I have a lot of responsibilities to deal with that has to do with my work that has to be done by may, I have a million dr appt’s i need to make and take care of that I have been putting off for ever!! its just all adding up, and Im about to break!!!
So sorry for this ranting, whining, annoying post ( I even annoyed myself writing it) but, on a good note, this would all be much harder to deal with 100 lbs ago. also, working out helps me relieve my stress. I always feel so much better and relieved after a workout. almost like a great massage. Tonight I went around my block twice taking turns walking/running. I have never been a good runner, but its never too late. I spent an hr doing this, then took a vigorous bike ride with dh. I tell you…..I did feel much better after that, however that euphoric feeling only lasts so long before the stress kicks in again. It doesn’t help that i am up all night by my self while the rest of the world sleeps.
B- fruit smoothie with strawberries, orange, blueberries, nonfat greek yogurt and flax seeds
S- salad with spinach, romaine, and lots of vegies with italian/vinegar dressing
L-white bean soup
S- peach chobani greek yogurt
D- baked chicken, cottage cheese, steamed cabbage
I am sorry that you have been so stressed out as of late. When you really like where you live moving can be quite hard. That happened to us one time so i can understand what you mean.
Money, ahhhh the money one. That can be a stinger. That is good though that your DH is going back to school. Culinary arts is a great career to get into. Take a VERY deep breath, take a look at what needs to be done now and what can wait. Look at moving as an adventure (for the kids) and you will be alright. It will be okay. Dont you EVER worry about writing out your stress on the blog. LOLOL You should see how I spout off at times! LOL
You take care okay?
)))HUGS((((
Joy
PS
Have a great day! You have a good job, a wonderful family, and look at how far you have come!
aww I wish I could sit up with you and keep you company.
Sounds like you have alot of changes coming up. I could go into all the possible positive things about it but I understand you just needed to get it off your chest and that those stressful things will be around for awhile until everything finds it place.
Moving DOES suck! Lots of work, especially on top of the over time work you’re already doing. It’ll interfere with you going to work out.
Can you schedule a vacation during moving time? I know that wasn’t your ideal vacation but it might help.
Hang in there, this will pass. Keep writing, good or bad.
Hey, at least you are still here! You have a tough row to how, but you will get past this, and it will be worth it, I feel sure. I had to move a lot, too, but now looking back, that was not the important thing. Working nights is tougher on some than others. Like I said, at least you are still here. Once you can talk yourself into being positive about what you have, what you are doing, where you are going, instead of negative about the (some very real) stresses, things will start to get easier. Hang in there, my thought is that ways to cope better will appear as you go. In the meantime, please accept *hugs* from me and let’s *talk again* when I get back to NC. I do have some other thoughts that might help. Hang in! Delita
Hey! You need to be able to vent on your own blog sweetpea, that what it’s here for.
I’m sorry to hear about moving, that’s no fun. I hope your next place brings you a lot of happiness and that it’s even better than your home right now.
I don’t get a ton of sun either, because I’m always working on the computer. Something that helped to boost my mood was Vitamin D (you get it from the sun normally). I took about 5000-6000 IU daily. My D levels were beautiful at my last blood test (best the office had in ages), but I got a prescription for a once weekly 50,000 IU pill. It really is a fabulous vitamin with a ton of great benefits. The prescription is only $5.00 a month too.
I worked the graveyard shift when I met my husband. I missed the sun badly - I understand where you’re coming from. Poor baby girl - living in Florida and missing out on all that sun! I hope you get some time off soon, maybe go play at the beach if your schedule permits? Or take a bike ride!