why did i wait so long?

plans for my 100lb mark? I guess I haven’t really planned anything official, since I have been looking more forward to getting to ONEderland. I have been focusing my main goal on that 199 mark. Its sort of crazy that I will reach both the 100lbs lost goal, and the ONEderland goal with in five lbs of each other.  I think when i lose 100 lbs (i’ll be 205lbs) I will take some comparison pics and post them, and of course tell everyone I know ;)  I will most likely shed some tears and maybe buy some new work out clothes (since mine are getting baggy) other than that I have no big plans.  Now, when I get to 199lbs there will be some celebratory actions. I’m not sure what yet, but I will celebrate this awesome victory :D  of ccourse, the best present I can give to myself is to continue with my transformation and reach my ultimate goal, which I am certain I can and will do.  A girl at my work confided in me last night that she was afraid she was killing herself. She is obese and says she feels like there is constant pressure on her heart. I felt so bad for her. She said I was an inspiration and gave her hope that she could eventually lose weight. She mainly wants to lose it so she can live longer to be around for her daughter and grandkids.  she hasn’t made any changes yet, but she sounds like she might be mentally ready. I told her I would help her in every way I could, although I felt sort of ill equipt for the task. I mean, how do you give somebody that “spark”, or “click”, or whatever that thing is to drive you to actually change your whole lifestyle. I can give her my tips and advice, but she has to be the one to actually do the work. I just hope she can do it.  and im glad that i could be some sort of inspiration to her. It made me feel so good to hear her say that.  Its like Im not only doing this for me. Im doing it for my kids and my family, and even the people I work with…. to give them hope. How cool is that?

last weigh in= 216.4

Today= 212 !!!!! yey!!!! Im at work now, and very happy with today’s weight.  7 more lbs and I’ll have lost 100lbs! Its unbelievable.  just wanted to share. cant stay on here too long tonight. Not much else to say anyway.

B- fruit smoothie with avacado, nonfat yogurt, strawberries, and banana

L- tuscan white bean soup

S- fiber one bar  (thats it so far today)

D-cheerios with skim milk

S- lowfat crackers, laughing cow cheese, and turkey, then later some light and fit yogurt

Is it possible that I am having seasonal depression again??  When I lived in Indiana I use to get down in the dumps every winter because it was so cold and dark and gloomy outside.  The seasonal depression (so they call it) went away once I moved to florida. Usually our weather here is very mild in the winter. We usually only have a month of “cold” weather and then it warms up again. This year has been very cold compared to the rest, and I think it is starting to wear me down. Maybe Im just having a ruff couple of weeks. who knows.   So, I was going to try this new class out tonight called “bodypump” which is totally all about weight lifting. no cardio involved. I love trying new things, and I really want more direction with free weights.  So I was all gungho and ready to rock and roll until I looked through the door and saw these buff people with all these scary barbells and such. I can’t believe this, but I actually chickened out!! I dont know what came over me, but I think i was just afraid that i wasn’t ready for this class. I know thats rediculous since Ive been working out for ten months now and who cares if Im not lifting like some of those people. I know that I can go at my pace and lift what I feel like lifting.  I just wimped out. Frustrating!  So, instead i did a spin class and my own lower body strength training routine.  Maybe next week I will do the bodypump class. tomorrow I am doing an abs class. Its a half hour of nothing but abs. Its a good ab workout. I’ve done it a couple times so far.   I haven’t weighed myself this week. I think I was just worried because I had a couple days of over doing the food last week.  So, I am anxious to weigh myself this week. I will do it Saturday. Hoping to be at least 215 or lower. fingers crossed.   I’ve had a good week on plan.

B- fruit smoothie with nonfat yogurt

S-some celery with half a tblsp of peanut butter

L- homemade tuscan white bean soup (2 servings)

D- roasted brussel sprouts, red potato, and cauliflower with a little olive oil

S- skinny dipper   total = about 1400 cal

btw… I just realized a little while ago, that I can comfortably cross my legs now :D  I think its been a little while that I could actually do it, but just realized that i can do it comfortably! Its the little things

I cant believe I’ve gone this long without knowing about the la tortilla factory tortilla’s. Only 50 calories and all that fiber. I’ve been trying to find an alternative to bread for my turkey sandwiches. I usually dont eat bread otherwise, and really dont like any of the whole grain breads (and i think i’ve tried them all) I’ve seen the tortilla factory tortilla’s on sterling’s blog but never paid them much attention until I found them in the store!! They are good, and healthy! yey, no more whole grain bread that I dont really like anyway.  I probably eat too many carbs anyway.  So, today (tuesday) was good. did my spin circuit class, which is cycling alternating with strength training.  Its a great workout, and Im always a little sore afterword.  Im tired now and going to get some sleep.

B- fruite smoothie with non fat yogurt

S- low fat crackers with turkey and laughing cow cheese

L- shredded wheat and light soy milk, a little later…. roasted brussel sprouts with olive oil.

S- light and fit yogurt

D- whole grain spaghetti with light sauce and ground turkey (green peppers and onion)

S- watermelon, skinny dipper

S- baked ritz crackers

total= about 1600 calories

Not much to say tonight. just felt like I should blog a bit. I apologize for my lack of interesting topics. It seems like I was just not cut out to be a writer or blogger. but, I really enjoy reading all the blogs and hope mine isn’t too boring and drab.  It just seems like when I come here to write, my brain goes blank.  so, I’ll just stick with the facts tonight.  DH has a hairline fracture in his big toe.  the man gets hurt more than anyone I know. He is an accident waiting to happen. so, because he can’t work, or do much of anything else, he is playing video games…..and thats about it. ugh….frustrating!!!!! He wonders why Im so snippy :)  It could also have something to do with TOM. Or the fact that I couldn’t control my self at the super bowl party we went to last night. I am dissappointed in myself. DH doesn’t realize that when I mess up with eating, it reflects in my attitude for days. He just doesn’t get it. I actually brought my own snacks just so I wouldn’t eat the wrong things, but still ended up eating crap!  The sensable snacks I brought weren’t touched. instead I had a sausage, pepper, and onion sandwhich. which was delicious. but I also had more crap i shouldn’t have once I got home.  It needs to stop. I need to go to the next level and start having more control. I’ve only lost about five lbs since christmas and I think it is because of these little mishaps I keep allowing myself to have.  So, enouph is enouph. Time to get serious again, and get to onederland soon!! damn it!!!!! tonight i did a spin class and upper body strength training.

B- salad with spinach, tomato, cucumber, green pepper, romain, italian dressing

S- light and fit strawberry smoothie yogurt

L- turkey, cheese, tomato, pickle, low fat mayo, mustard on a tortilla factory tortilla. corn on the cob, and baked ritz crackers

S- watermelon

D- healthy choice portabella spinach, parmesan meal

S- skinny dipper bar  = about 1200 cal