why did i wait so long?

this is a pic of my chitlins, my joy, and my motivation:

today was much better.  I ate right, and worked out hard at the gym. still feeling guilt over last night, but i am trying to move on…. I went christmas shopping tonight, but sort of ashamed to say, I spent a lot of time just trying on clothes. I didn’t end up buying anything for myself (except a new bra and pj pants) but I tried on numerous shirts and pants.  A whole new world of clothes is opening up to me now!!  Even tho it has gotten better than it use to be, plus size people really dont have nearly as many options as smaller people have.  Now that I fit into a 2x (sometimes a 1x) there are so many more options for me, and I love it!! even if I don’t have the money to buy all these things, its nice to know I could if I wanted to :D  also, I dont really want to buy a whole bunch of stuff because I am shrinking out of them fairly quickly. so, I’ve decided just to buy enouph clothing to get me by until I reach my goal.  Once I’ve reached my goal I am sure I will go hog wild on a new wardrobe (take out a loan if I have to, lol).   It’s ashame they dont make more stores out there for us heafty girls.  but soon, I wont have to worry about that anymore ;)  

I got lots of christmas shoping done today, and I’m watching the christmas story right now, i love that movie!  so, Im feeling pretty festive at the moment!  “you’ll shoot your eye out kid” LOL!

B- fruit smoothie with avacado, nonfat yogurt and honey

L-salad with olives and sunflower seeds with low fat greek dressing & small bowl of kashi cereal with lite soy milk

D- Healthy choice chicken and pasta dish

S- WW ice cream bar, apple

S- a small side salad with low fat greek dressing