why did i wait so long?

I feel so accomplished tonight! we finally got the house cleaned, woo hoo. It feels so nice to have a clean house. I also cleaned out the fridge.  DH helped, so it was nice to do it together.  we also went shoping together today, which is not the norm. it was hectic due to thanksgiving week and all. I hate shoping when its busy. People can be so rude, you just want to scream at them!! 

 My official weigh in day is saturday….but for some reason today i just felt like i was lighter. you ever feel like that? Like I just had a feeling I was going to be happy if I stepped on the scale. For some reason…. getting in the 220’s has been a big deal to me. Maybe because it is the weight I was after I had my 1st child. ( i gained 80lbs with that pregnancy, which is what put me into the obese category) I just kept gaining slowly after that.  but, it’s been almost ten years since i was this “small”.  So, today I weighed 229!!!!!!!! OMG! I felt so happy….just complete joy!  I also fit into a shirt that was too small on me a couple weeks ago. yey!!  It’s like almost every day I am having these small victories that keep me motivated.  I just wish I would have done this years ago. It’s ashame that I had to spend my 20’s being so over weight and unhappy with my self. It’s not like I was an unhappy person. I have a good life, great family, nice career, ect….. but, i know my 20’s would have been so much better if I was healthy and not so obese. oh well…. I will be healthy in my 30’s and for the rest of my life.  The taste of food just is NOT WORTH IT!! you know….Its just not worth the feeling of being fat and unhealthy!  going around every minute of the day feeling sluggish, and sweaty, out of breath, and out of place! Eat to live, not live to eat!!  I am done with those feelings of being “the fat girl”, of being uncomfortable in my own skin. I am done with that shit!!! I just feel too good now to ever go back. Food is not worth it.

I went to the gym tonight and did my upper body and 50 min cardio. It felt great, even tho i’m still sick. (no spin class) maybe next week.

B- low sugar oatmeal with light soy milk and half a banana

S- salad with sunflower seeds and light catalina

S- 2% string cheese stick, danactive

L- small bowl of whole grain spaghetti with no meat sauce

D- rice and beans lean cuisine meal and an orange