Weightloss Journal

12/8/09

12/8/09

Yesterday I was at the doctor’s office. I weighed in at 195 pounds.

My final goal weight is 150. I have picked up smoking again because I am frustrated with my efforts.

My plan is to eat eggs for breakfast, a green salad for lunch, an apple for a snack and about a 600 calorie dinner. I want to work out and I have joined a gym but I find it difficult to get there. Ugh!

I have a plan but I need a jumpstart. If I have a dinner party or something that prevents me from this plan, I fall off the wagon. Then I beat myself up about it and get depressed. I will stay positive! IF I SLIP UP, GET OVER IT AND CONTINUE WITH MY PLAN!

I’m just glad I’m not pregnant anymore!

7/13/09

I worked out on the treadmill with a slight incline for 20 minutes yesterday and 30 minutes today. Feels great! Now that I have more energy in the second trimester, I can get some much needed exercise. This will help my mood, my swollen limbs and body, and I’ve heard it will help with my after delivery recovery. I just want to keep it up after the baby arrives too and for LIFE!!  Love it! I love the way it feels! 

Yesterday I weighed in at 201. I should be gaining weight with the pregnancy but not at the rate I have been.  For instance I am six months pregnant and I have gained 30 pounds so far. Too much too soon.

Oh, well!!!!!  I’m glad I’m not someone who says … who cares, I’m pregnant, let me do whatever, who cares about my health or my weight!!!

peace out

7/7/09

I do not get any sleep. I am in my fifth month of pregnancy and I have had severe allergies for the last four of those months. I eat whatever I want because I am miserable and just don’t care. I don’t exercise because I simply have no energy. I hate myself and I hate that I can’t even take care of my four year old daughter. Today I weighted in at 201. That means I have gained over 30 pounds and I still have four months left of the pregnancy. My daughter told me today that my legs are getting bigger and bigger like Nikki’s which is my sister who is very over weight.   one word describes how i feel right now…. depressed

6/30/09

Pre pregnancy weight was 170 lbs. That was five months ago. I am currently at 197.  I gained 50 lbs with my first pregnancy and did not want to gain as much with this one but I may just be doing that. I cannot diet or take supplements but just writing about my weight may help me make better choices come chow time!