OK.. so I saw some comicbooks when I went to the book store that is going out of business near my house. i looked at teh superhero women… and guess what.. I’m BUILT like them.. Big Boobs, Big Hips, and thick legs with a small waist. So then Why aren’t I a superhero??? Oh that’s right.. these women are only a size 2 not a size 12. And they are “Curvaceous”, not Over weight..
Sheesh… Even Comic books are against me.
Eating has been really really good. And Dr. BF is finally aboard on the NO JUNK IN THE HOUSE rule.
All that is in my fridge are good foods. HEalthy Foods. And I am going shopping weekly at the Farmers Market now. It’s open Tues. Thurs. Saturdays. So tomorrow is Lettuce, oranges, and eggs day!
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It seems all that hard work paid off. Not only have I lost the 6lbs I gained in Cuba..I lost an extra 1lb. I am FINALLY below 180. Yes. I am happy. It’s only a pound. But it’s a whole pound below what I was before I left for Cuba.
Now if I can just keep this up!
Having the veggie garden is a big help. Doing what little I can in the garden is like exercise for me. Plus I’m eating so many fresh veggies! What a big help!!! Got my first Zucchini today.. A bright yellow one. I’m afraid to eat it. I’ve never had yellow zucchini before. Yes I know.. ME and My Food Phobias.. Fuzzy Fruit Phobia.. Squeaky Food Phobia.. now The NOt The Right Color Veggie Phobia… I’m weird.. I admit it!!lol
So much stress has been lifted now that I have confirmed all my specialists appts., confirmed that school is paid for and I can get my schedule, and that my friend didn’t have a stroke yesterday.
WHEW…..
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Soooo… I’m trying to lose weight. I HAVE to lose weight so my back can get better. So my hip can get better. SO my asthma will go away. So I eat well. But then there comes the subject of Exercise.
My doctos want me to exercise. However.. they cannot come up with a program that I can do without making my back worse! All they keep saying is “Swim, Swim, Swim”. YEah.. I can’t swim! So how can I swim when I don’t know how… and don’t have access to a pool until September?
I figure walking my dogs more and doing some housework very carefully is good exercise. It makes me feel good but when I’m done, I’m in more pain than when I woke up… weird. I know I am not over doing it. ANd it’s not so much my back hurting as it is my hip and my right leg.
So… Do I exrecise and lose weight and stay in pain? Or do I not exrecise, hope that cutting calories only will do the job and keep pain to the minimum? See my situation? Danged if I do, Danged if Don’t… sheesh.
Dr. BF is getting me a new BBQ this coming weekend so we can finish out the summer grilling veggies from garden and doing chickenkabobs and yummy things like that.
I wish I could do more with my horses. Even just brushing them is a great workout. But they are all leased out for now and live far away. It makes me sad.
Guess I’ll just start walking the dogs more and deal with a bit more pain.
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Yes I really need to lose at least 40lbs. Last nite after I finished all my cleaning and cooking and etc… I hurt. I hurt sooo bad I had to take meds. And a friend pointed out, “Didn’t you feel alot better when you were in shape?”. GOOD POINT!
THe doctors have even told me, lose weight and get back into shape and your back will feel much better. It won’t be 100% but it will be a big difference in the pain department. And my knees and hip will feel better. My lungs will feel better. Etc Etc Etc.
All things are connected are they not?
Dr. BF came home from outwest bearing gifts… one of them food of course. But I was a good girl. I gave some of it away so I wouldn’t eat it all! Less of the desserts means less of the weight on my big ole butt.
He loves me so much he does bad things.. like give me food I shouldn’t be eating. But this time… he only gave me half of what he usually brings back!!lol and I gave HALF of the half away. YAY ME!!
It’s small changes like these that help. And each day if I can make these small changes, it will lead to greater changes in my life!
Tomorrow is another week. My goal.. be below 185…..
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I’ve gotten things done today so I do feel productive! I picked veggies from my garden, cooked up a pot of Spaghetti Sauce with them, done laundry, swept the floors.
For me..that is a BIG productive day!
The back has been feeling really good lately, but I think it’s because I know how far to push myself before the Pain sets in and knocks me out for 3 days. The only thing hurting bad on me today are my legs. Dr. Asshat wants me to make another appointment to discuss that issue.
His police: One Topic Per Visit. So I’ve had 3 visits this week. One to have forms filled out. ONe to get referrals to specialists done. One to get a prescription refilled… WTF is with that? Yes … he DOES get paid per visit. But seriously.. the goverment is going to think all his patients are Hypochondriacs!
I still have more stuff to do around the house, so gonna do it bit by bit. That way I won’t be hurting later. And I will feel like I have been very productive!
More storms are due. So I’ll be taking care of Old Dobie Dog all nite!
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So..I have just found out that I live a part of “Tornado Alley” … go figger.. Niagara is part of the Alley.. and Yes we got hit last nite. But luckily just the tail ends as they passed over us and crossed the lake and landed in the Toronto Area. 5 of them reported.
Geriatric Dobie was fit to be tied… I couldn’t find her “happy pills”, so we had to ride it out “sober”. She survived!lol Geriatric JRT slept through the whole thing!
The rain came back this morning after a lovely clear night last nite. But after 1pm, the winds blew the clouds away and it’s lovely out.
I am cooking up a healthy supper tonite. I have eaten well all day. Picked fresh veggies out of my garden, and will be making Sghetti Sauce this weekend!!
All my patio plants got knocked over by the wind, my mats went flying.. finally found them on the other side of the fence. But boy is everything nice and clean and green!
My horses are loving all this wonderful grass! Keeping them all fat and sassy. Boy do I miss them!
Dr. BF comes home from outwest this weekend. Won’t see him till next weekend as he goes right back to work after he lands tomorrow. He says he’s got a surprise for me. I asked for a post card… Last year he came home with a new TV… What kind of souvenier is a TV??lol Will I get a new Washer and Dryer this year?lol
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So the thermometer says one temp.. but the weather station gives me another temp which includes the Humidex. I HATE humidity! I just wish the storms would come in and wash this humidity away! Yesterday was gorgeous. Breezy, sunny, hot.. but NOT humid!
I walked the dogs, went to the 2 dr.s appts. Got laundry done… hurt like heck but felt like I actually accomplished things.
And now today… all I want to do is sit under the AC and do nothing..but cannot do that.. that is not productive.
When it’s hot and humid like this.. I don’t want to eat.. and I don’t want to cook.. Don’t want to add more heat to the heat!!lol So I tend to eat cereal or salad… but gees.. that’s totally defeating the eat healthy plan. 4 bowls of cereal in one day?? Not good…
So I’m off to the mailbox. Then off to water the garden. Then back here to do laundry and write the never ending request for articles.
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Heat.
It effects me in so many ways.
I am not hungry but I know I have to eat.
I am tired but know I have to move.
I am not thirsty but know i need water.
I am irritable, but I know I shouldn’t be.
Refusing to be sucked into this heat and this cycle of bad things, I will drink my water. I will pick tomatoes in my garden. I will walk my dogs in the shady park.
Now.. if I can just get my butt off this danged couch!!!
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Wow… I have gone a whole week with no binges. NO tater chips, no ice cream. Only eating good things. Even when i ate a bit too much carbs.. it was GOOD carbs. I rarely eat regular bread.. and when I do, it’s always some type of whole grain bread. But there hasn’t been a loaf of bread in my house in at least 8 months, until Friday.
Dr. BF was down for 4 days before he goes to visit his parents out west. He’s boarding the plane as I type this. Back to the bread. We decided we were going to make toasted tomato sandwihces with fresh Yellow Boy tomatoes from my garden. But we had no bread. Ended up getting something called “Ancient Grains” bread from Dempsters. BOy is it good!!! I’m hoarding it now because I want it all to myself. And it willb e a treat for me. A toasted slice with honey!! YUMMM soo much healthier than a bag of chips.
I got a membership at the Y on Friday also. It has a pool and the doctors all say that swimming will help my back and avoid surgery longer. So here I am.. fear of water.. non swimmer.. going to be doing laps with a flutter board.
I had better end up with the most amazing ass and legs out of this embarrassing new exercise!
Depression is hanging around again. But I’m trying to beat it. There are just some times I get so down about my back and my weight and my life, that I just can’t take it anymore. My doctor says I am not manic depressive, or a chronically depressed person. I am “just going through a rough time” at this point in my life he says. He is trying to push pills on me to “Just help you through until you are better”. No thanks. I will try to beat this on my own.
Dr. BF feels so bad because there is nothing he can do. I told him just be supportive and hold me when I need to be held and we’ll be just fine.
So now I am trying to be positive and hope that the funding comes through for school! I will deal with my GP whom I call Dr. Asshat… on tuesday.
Two days all to myself!1 WOOHOO…
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So… two more days of eating well! And I finished off my peaches and Dr. BF bought me more!!
My next experiment will be Plums and Nectarines.
And tonite when we went out to dinner… I avoided the breadbasket and ate the salad. THen I only ate 2 wedges of the roast potatoes instead of the whole portion and I ate not even half the rice. I love Tzatziki… This restaurant makes their own, and they go heavy on the garlic which I love! I swear I could eat Chicken Souvlaki and Tzatziki EvEry DAY!!
Finally Dr. BF is being very supportive in the right ways for my weightloss. Before he’d let me have whatever I want because he loved me… now he’s helping me watch what I eat because he loves me. IT took him awhile to change from giving me what I want or crave.. to giving me what is healthy and keeping from me that which is not good for me at all!
It’s a step in the right direction.
Why is it that alot of significant others just cannot be more supportive??? It took Dr. BF a long time to get around…. but he’s finally here. It’s not that he wasn’t supportive before.. but he always wanted me to be happy so if I wanted Ice Cream and it made me happy…I got it.. now I get peaches!!lol
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