The Secret to Losing Weight and Keeping It Off

You know those days when you can eat your arm? Well that was today. I was good, I stayed in my calories and made good choices. But I was so hungry! I’m STILL hungry.

But I am so proud of myself for sticking to my calories and making healthy choices. Usually on a day like today I’d binge and eat everything in sight. Let’s face it, I didn’t get to 270 lbs by enjoying the feeling of being hungry! I know though that if I just wait it out, tomorrow I will be less hungry and more able to manage my diet. If I go off track today and binge binge binge, tomorrow will be hard. It will be a battle of wills to get back on track again.

I’m a binge eater. Not a crazy 10,000 calorie at a time binge eater (although I’m sure I have done that in the past), but a slippery slope binge eater. What I mean by that is that if I had given in today…if I had eaten everything I wanted to eat (luckily none of that is in the house right now, so I didn’t even have the option)…tomorrow I would have eaten worse, and the next day even worse. Until finally I was back to my old ways and figuring that losing weight, for me, is just a lost cause.

I don’t think you should be hungry when you are trying to lose weight. I mean with how many low calorie foods there are out there….there’s really no need. But even if I had eaten my weight in vegetables today, I suspect the gnawing hunger would still be there. Not sure if that’s a female thing or a fat person thing, but I think everyone has these bottomless pit days. And I think that for most people, one day of constant grazing won’t hurt them. But for me, it will. So I go to bed hungry tonight. Knowing that tomorrow will be a better day for it.

And the extra calories I didn’t gorge on today (because in fact, if you count my workout today…I’ve actually come under budget calorie wise today) I can enjoy in a nice family meal out. A much better PLANNED use of enjoying food. It’s the whole, don’t eat the cookie because it’s there. If you don’t really want the cookie and you really want a chocolate bar, hold out for the chocolate bar! Sounds simple, but it’s sooo not.

Filed under: Calories, Emotional Eating on November 5th, 2009