Posted by gum232 on January 11th, 2014 |Filed Under ME |
I was talking to a friend the other day about having met some amazing and interesting people through my experiences, including myself. Wow! That is pretty deep even for me. Who was I all those years before? Actually who am I now? People have always and will continue to come in and out of our lives. I never really thought about coming in and out of my own life. I suppose it all is based on environment, experiences and our response to such that lead us to be the person we were, are or will become.
I feel healthier and better about being in my own body than I have ever felt-ever! I have lived 4 1/2 decades yet am more physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually able and capable of living and appreciating even the smallest of things. God has a plan and I’m riding it out. I don’t know what each day holds, much less any further than that.
Every day I wake up I am anxious to see what blessings I will receive, be a part of, or witness. I try to not take anything for granted. We are only here for a blink of an eye in the scope of eternity. I have to be the best “me” I can be while I’m here. I never cared before but God did. He’s cared all along. I have given up on “me” countless times. He has carried me through things many times. I am now aware and try to acknowledge that I would not be here if He did not have a plan for me.
I have to go forward, without looking back. It does no good to dwell on could’ve, would’ve or should’ve. Life has happened the way it has for a reason. Today I am here completely through the grace and love of God. I am very fortunate to have survived through being morbidly obese and with the health conditions related to being that way. I probably should have died along the way. He knew I wanted to many times and he knew when I prayed fervently not to die in my sleep. I am blessed beyond my wildest imagination to be able to live now in a physical body better suited to glorify God.
I like the me I have become and am still growing into being. The person I used to be has “died” in a way and I feel like I have been born again-given a second chance. I am outgoing. I am confident. I am proud to be me for what I have done, losing a lot of weight and learning to keep it off, regardless of what anyone says, regardless of support or lack thereof, regardless of who I used to be or who I am now, if people like me or not. It’s not for me to be concerned about. I will continue going ahead full force. If people can be inspired by my story then I am honored and humbled for God to use me in this way.
Soon I will be “revealed” to the world following the surgical removal of excess skin by Dr. Ordon, from The Doctors. How will it effect me? Will I change and grow even more?! Will I be able to encourage others to treat their body as the temple God intended us to do? Will someone learn about this God of whom I speak and want to know Him too? He can bring peace like no other. Give your worries and troubles to God.
I like me. No regrets. Lessons learned. Moving forward with God guiding me through calm and troubled waters.
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