Posted by gum232 on October 20th, 2012 |Filed Under ME |
Just how many times can we have “life changing” experiences?? Well, I’m not sure how many I’ve had thus far but I have had another. Last Saturday there was a TOPS Fall Rally for our area. I did receive a few awards but the biggest recognition was being presented the Century Award. In TOPS, Take Off Pounds Sensibly, the Century Award Medallion is highly regarded and a huge award that is earned. On one side of this beautiful pendant necklace is a picture of Edith Manz, the founder of TOPS, and on the other side is the Centruy Award and a statement declaring that the recipient has not only lost a hundred pounds or more, but that they have kept it off for 52 consequetive weeks. I am so very thankful to have come this far in my weight loss journey. It has not been an easy road to travel. It is a lonely road sometimes being the odd man out in numerous situations but I am worth it. I have to keep telling myself that all the time. I am worth it. I have to keep going in the right direction, away from where I was and where I do not want to revisit- EVER!
I have not been at my best, as far as focussing, for the last few months and know this. I have maintained within about 10 pounds so I am not terribly disappointed in that. I am disappointed though that I have gotten this far and have kind of wasted my time and efforts in not obtaining the big goal. I am within 20 pounds or so of where I need to be to be in a healthy fat percent and BMI. It’s hard to say if I can really get there because of the excess skin. All I have to say about that is I really, really appreciate spandex!! Thank goodness no one has to see me nude - LOL!!
As I sit here hungry - I know that it is only a mental hunger and desire to munch - I am struggling to not go and find something to nibble. What good would that do? I don’t want to go the wrong direction on the scales for sure. Then what would eating something wrong do for my metabolism? Stop it! I don’t want that.
I want to share a couple of pictures - a before and after.
We bought this negative converter that changes negatives to pictures on your computer. A few weeks ago I finally tried it and one of the first pictures that I came across was this one. I think I really teared up. How did I ever let myself get to that condition. I don’t know what I was thinking but I know what I’m thinking now and that is what matters now.
The setting of this picture is a stop on the Natchez Trace. We went so far down the path and I had set the timer on the camera. It was facing where we had come from. I am sure at the time that I went no further due to not being capable. Now, a couple weeks ago, we took a drive down the Natchez again. I’m thinking to myself, can we find the same path? can we recreate that picture?
Why yes we did find the same path! I set the camera going the other way - continuing down the path, not remembering exactly the direction but knowing that we found the spot. I didn’t mean to do that but to compare the pictures of where I was, where I came from to now, the present and where I’m going. I went down the rocky trail with my family, all the way to the bottom! A couple of friends have said that I look like one of the girls.
The trail is a great representation of my weight loss journey, how far I have come and the possibilities that lie ahead. I can get there with patience and endurance with focus/obsession and the support from TOPS, MRC and my family, friends, coworkers and internet companions. Thank you for helping me get this far. I have to keep going. The end, and beginning, is so near. I am doing it for me!