Blinders covering my eyes…

Posted by gum232 on September 25th, 2012 |Filed Under ME |

I have been in such a bad way lately putting other people and things first.  But you know what?  NOPE!  I’m done!  I got dressed this morning and looked in the mirror and totally blew myself away!  Not to sound obnoxious or boastful, but to be proud of my accomplishment, dare I say that I look amazing?!  What?  Yeah, I saw in the mirror the person that I have always thought  was in the deep, dark, layers and layers of the former me.  It’s quite exciting and such an honor to talk to people about losing weight and sharing what has become, not just my journey, but my testimony. 

Your weight does not make you the person you are - it’s what’s inside the shell that matters.  Are you happy with yourself?  Are you physically capable and okay with your abilities and/or your limitations?  Are you mentally capable to face each and every day in the skin that you have, covering the figure that you alone have formed? Are you emotionally capable of handling yourself in situations that arise when obstacles get in your way?

Okay, here it goes…. I am going to try to blog as much as I can to stay focused toward my goal!  I am getting so close.  I’m not sure where my body will let me get to but now the future is at hand.  A little eye-opening fall at work, leading to some bad bruising on my shins has kind of helped knock some sense into me.  If I had been at my heaviest and the same thing occured I can’t imagine the outcome.  I have some goals that I really, really want to reach.  I am wearing some 12s and 14s but would love to see some 10s and less 14s.  Clothes-wise that’s going to be a comfortable, and obtainable goal. Really?  Still can’t believe I’ve come this far from 30s!  Insane I tell you.

I’ll let you in on something else that will be happening in the not so far away future but first let me tell you how it was before.  In the world of living as morbidly obese it’s almost like I walked around with blinders covering my eyes and blocking my mind.  Thinking of the past really makes me sad but I get over that and embrace each day now.  Picture this: Walking through a mall…. the blinders are on to all of the stores that were untouchable, blocking out all the clothes I couldn’t wear, the jewelry that wouldn’t fit, the shoes that would kill me feet, the foods that I know I shouldn’t eat.  Picture this as well:  Vacation was a nightmare…. Going to amuzement parks where all the rides would be uncomfortable and, IF I could fit, would have to get extensions for belts, all the fun stuff was undoable such as sports, games, etc.  So many things that I really missed out on in life are now all the new possibilities.  Well… now for my future, what will the crystal ball reveal?  Hehehe!  I know one thing that’s going to occur.  My daughters and I are going to go on a snow skiing trip!!!  What?  Yep!  I am going to try it.  NEVER in my life did I ever fathom the thought or think that I could do it but I am sure going to try!  How much fun will that be?!

I’m heading out for another great day at my job that I am so blessed and fortunate to have and love.  Expect to hear from me again SOON. 

Stay focused towards your little goals that you strive for each day and in the end the big goal will be yours!  You can do it and I can too but only you can do it for you.  I AM DOING IT FOR ME!! :)

 


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  1. rayray523 on September 25, 2012 8:44 am

    Congrats for coming such a long way! And good for you, it’s never easy (EVER) and having that attitude is what will get you past the pre-goal hump and into those comfortable 10’s!

    Good luck and keep going!

  2. sunnydayz on October 3, 2012 8:17 am

    I can so relate to this post as I have really been struggling lately, too. I’m glad that you’re feeling so much better lately and I love your positive attitude. :)

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