Posted by gum232 on November 25th, 2011 |Filed Under ME |
Well, I thought I’d try to write as quick as I can. Life has been crazy busy with work and family. However I have been able to keep focused on my program and my goals. It’s not easy trying to manage everything but I do, somehow. After 8 months of planning and preparing meals, I am kind of a pro at it now. I still take my food no matter where I go, unless I am sure that I can find something within my eating realms on a menu.
My family has been quite supportive of me. Our daughters are more conscious and supportive I think than my husband. He’s loved me in over a hundred pound range. I am smaller today than he’s ever seen me. I am having to relearn my own body. It’s not looking as good in the flesh as it appears to be in clothing. Since I have had my skin stretched out for 1/4 of a century I don’t expect it to just tighten up on it’s own, nor do I think that any amount of exercise that I do would show much difference. Sorry, got side-tracked. Anyways, back to family - the girls are aware of my transformation and are my little cheerleaders. They tell me that I look good and give constructive criticism about what I wear. My husband on the other hand, who married me at a size 24, doesn’t make a big deal out of my progress. He has been, unknowingly, one to sabotage success in the past. Numerous friends and acquaintances go crazy with praises and compliments that I appreciate tremendously. It’d be nice to hear it from him though. Oh well. I do have concern having known, or known of, people that have lost considerable amounts of weight and had relationship problems as a result. I didn’t get married to get divorced. It is different for sure and has brought a whole new perspective into the relationship that has never been here before - knowing him nearly 21 years. Will hope for the best.
I survived Thanksgiving! How did you do?? It was not too difficult considering that we were at home, with no company. I ate what I wanted - 6 oz turkey breast, 4 ounces fresh cooked green beans and 4 ounces of fresh pineapple. I had my fill. I go to weigh in today so I’ll see how I’ve done. I’ve maintained control and focus and don’t want to jeopardize my progress for a piece of bread, a bite of this or a bite of that. I know that I can’t give in to the food and temptation or it could lead to a gain, or worse - a relapse, a weak moment. I am not strong enough mentally to allow “cheating”. I will gain that strength later, now it’s practically a phobia! LOL!
I am working towards the 140 pound mark! I have lost 132 pounds and hope to show a few pounds lost on the scales today. It seems impossible but I have actually gotten into a couple things size 16!! I’ve even tried some clothes on that I made in high school - they are now lose!! I am glad to have found a TOPS chapter that is supportive as well. There’s a lot of great information that is shared or inspired at each weekly meeting. I’ve been a TOPS member for 6 years now. Feel free to check out www.TOPS.org to find a weekly meeting in your area. It’s the oldest and most inexpensive weight loss support group in the USA, and around the world. The accountability that I experience on a weekly basis is similar to what I suppose a recovering alcoholic experiences or needs. I need the weigh-ins at Metabolic Research Center twice a week, nutritionally, etc. but TOPS is that extra support that’s needed emotionally to get me through till the next meeting.
OH, I did finally reward my body for going under the 250 pound mark that was way overdue. I had a 45 minute massage! I am addicted now! I could do that ever week I think - well, except for the payment part of it! I DO NOT EVER REWARD WITH FOOD. The goal is to change the focus away from food, not to reach a goal so you can eat something. I have never understood that concept.
If you are interested in MRC, they are having a black Friday special - 1/2 off sign-up fee! That’s a great savings:). Please be sure to say my name - Heather Gum from Murfreesboro, TN so I get the referral. I told my husband when I started that if it were our car we’d fix it without thinking twice - I was “broke” and needed “fixing”. What a great gift to give yourself! The gift of health and stability. Do it for yourself.
I am Doing it for me!
P.S. Will let you know how I do today. I’ll also try to post more often through the holidays.