I DO NOT EVER REWARD WITH FOOD.

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Well, I thought I’d try to write as quick as I can. Life has been crazy busy with work and family.  However I have been able to keep focused on my program and my goals.  It’s not easy trying to manage everything but I do, somehow.  After 8 months of planning and preparing meals, I am kind of a pro at it now.  I still take my food no matter where I go, unless I am sure that I can find something within my eating realms on a menu. 

My family has been quite supportive of me.  Our daughters are more conscious and supportive I think than my husband.  He’s loved me in over a hundred pound range.  I am smaller today than he’s ever seen me.  I am having to relearn my own body.  It’s not looking as good in the flesh as it appears to be in clothing.  Since I have had my skin stretched out for 1/4 of a century I don’t expect it to just tighten up on it’s own, nor do I think that any amount of exercise that I do would show much difference.  Sorry, got side-tracked.  Anyways, back to family - the girls are aware of my transformation and are my little cheerleaders.  They tell me that I look good and give constructive criticism about what I wear.  My husband on the other hand, who married me at a size 24, doesn’t make a big deal out of my progress. He has been, unknowingly, one to sabotage success in the past.  Numerous friends and acquaintances go crazy with praises and compliments that I appreciate tremendously.  It’d be nice to hear it from him though.  Oh well.  I do have concern having known, or known of, people that have lost considerable amounts of weight and had relationship problems as a result.  I didn’t get married to get divorced.  It is different for sure and has brought a whole new perspective into the relationship that has never been here before - knowing him nearly 21 years.  Will hope for the best.

I survived Thanksgiving!  How did you do??  It was not too difficult considering that we were at home, with no company.  I ate what I wanted - 6 oz turkey breast, 4 ounces fresh cooked green beans and 4 ounces of fresh pineapple.  I had my fill.  I go to weigh in today so I’ll see how I’ve done.  I’ve maintained control and focus and don’t want to jeopardize my progress for a piece of bread, a bite of this or a bite of that.  I know that I can’t give in to the food and temptation or it could lead to a gain, or worse - a relapse, a weak moment.  I am not strong enough mentally to allow “cheating”.  I will gain that strength later, now it’s practically a phobia! LOL!

I am working towards the 140 pound mark!  I have lost 132 pounds and hope to show a few pounds lost on the scales today.  It seems impossible but I have actually gotten into a couple things size 16!!  I’ve even tried some clothes on that I made in high school - they are now lose!!  I am glad to have found a TOPS chapter that is supportive as well.  There’s a lot of great information that is shared or inspired at each weekly meeting.  I’ve been a TOPS member for 6 years now.  Feel free to check out www.TOPS.org to find a weekly meeting in your area.  It’s the oldest and most inexpensive weight loss support group in the USA, and around the world.  The accountability that I experience on a weekly basis is similar to what I suppose a recovering alcoholic experiences or needs.  I need the weigh-ins at Metabolic Research Center twice a week, nutritionally, etc. but TOPS is that extra support that’s needed emotionally to get me through till the next meeting. 

OH, I did finally reward my body for going under the 250 pound mark that was way overdue.  I had a 45 minute massage!  I am addicted now!  I could do that ever week I think - well, except for the payment part of it!  I DO NOT EVER REWARD WITH FOOD.  The goal is to change the focus away from food, not to reach a goal so you can eat something.  I have never understood that concept. 

If you are interested in MRC, they are having a black Friday special - 1/2 off sign-up fee!  That’s a great savings:).  Please be sure to say my name - Heather Gum from Murfreesboro, TN so I get the referral.  I told my husband when I started that if it were our car we’d fix it without thinking twice - I was “broke” and needed “fixing”.  What a great gift to give yourself!  The gift of health and stability.  Do it for yourself.

I am Doing it for me! 

P.S. Will let you know how I do today. I’ll also try to post more often through the holidays.