Posted by gum232 on May 16th, 2011 |Filed Under ME |
The fine line of being focused and obsessed is like walking a tight rope and wobbling like you’re going to stumble and crash - without a net! Catch yourself! Don’t let yourself fall! It’s not, but it is, hard to believe, twelve and a half weeks in, that I have not faltered down the passage on which I’m traveling. Soon I will reach a big goal towards the triumphant rejoicing of a healthy weight for my body to live a lot longer and be able to do more. I feel a lot better. I’m not putting any processed food in my body. Only fresh or frozen fruit and vegetables, some eggs, cheese and LOTS of lean meats - chicken, turkey, pork loin, etc. go in my mouth with very minimal starchy items like flatbreads or melba toast.
I have been feeding my body, and feeding my body and feeding my body. Never have I ever NOT wanted to eat due to satiation to the point that I have to practically force feed myself. My kids the other night were even cheering me on “Come on Mommy…You can do it!” OH my gosh was that like the best words to my ears at the moment as stuffed as I felt I continued to feed my body what it needed. It was genuine concern and heart felt support. It’s not ever easy for anyone to admit that they need help, much less to ask for it and take it. This has not been the easiest life change yet the best one ever. I’m going down all the way this time - FOR GOOD!
People are starting to notice. I’m not one to typically want attention but my attitude and views are changing. Compliment Me Please! Seriously! I need all the recognition I can get. Praise is as hard to accept as help that you need from friends but I’m working hard. I deserve it. My office-mate said she prayed for me this morning. How wonderful is that?! I was deeply touched and moved by her kindness. Accept compliments and encouragement gracioiusly and be certain to ask for their continued support and acknowledgement. I think this is helping me stay on the path to my mini goal increments and will eventually assist in success. It has crossed my mind how people are going to get sick of my way of eating but I really hope not. I make it a very common practice to take my food with me to whatever function or gathering that I attend. My family has gotten used to me organizing all my foods, spices, etc. and I appreciate their patience tremendously. I’ve still got a long way to go but with compliments, continued support, and attainable goals, I intend to reach shed my “exoskeleton” by the end of the year. If I stay focused I can do it - it’s possible. I stopped making New Years resolutions long ago, cause you never keep them. Next year might be a different resolution for a change?!?!
Thank you for any compliments, praise, encouragement and motivation that you can provide. I need it. I appreciate it. I AM DOING THIS FOR ME!!
P.S. I have noticed something, and seen it for my own eyes! I couldn’t tell you the last time that I saw it, I knew I had one- I remember seeing it before and could only feel it the last number of years. I can see my belly button! Yep! It’s there! It’s crazy the little things that I’ve noticed, that I never really thought of before, missed or even cared about. It’s great!