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A Complication…

I got the results of the stress test from the cardiologist yesterday. He said there is something abnormal, and I am scheduled for a cardiac catheterization next week. That means they go into a vein in your leg with a wire and thread the wire all the way up into your heart, and then look for any blockages. He say I may or may not have a blockage, so this test is necessary. If there is a blockage, he said they can usually take care of it right then with a balloon.

He also said NO GYM until I get the results of the test. Which means I’ll be 2 weeks or so behind schedule. I’m afraid I’ll quit losing during this time. I spoke to my trainer and he extended my session credits for another month, so that part is okay. I’m really kind of scared and sad about this new development. Sorry I haven’t been posting every day but I’ve been kind of obsessed with the stress test and this whole keeping on plan thing. I have kept on plan every single day since June 6, though. And I’ll continue to stay on plan through this next hurdle. Hopefully that will be enough to keep me from undoing all of the work I’ve done so far.

I hope the rest of y’all are doing well on this journey!

Gina

AWOL again - Day 11

I’ve been missing because I’ve been down… the scale kept going up and up (all the way to 311) and I was just discouraged. I didn’t go off plan though, and now I’m down to 307.6, which is two pounds less than my starting weight. My trainer and his boss say not to focus on the scale but its like I can’t keep from weighing myself every morning. Maybe that will change once I start losing consistently.

I think the reason I went up was I was getting too few calories. That’s really a weird thought. You would expect that the less you ate the better, but apparently it doesn’t work that way. I’ve been having trouble eating enough calories every day. I’m not used to eating so many times a day - I used to eat one big meal (dinner) and had random snacks, if anything, through the rest of the day. I’m eating way more food now than I’m used to, and believe it or not I get so full I cannot eat all of the calories I’m supposed to every day. How weird is that? I’ve been hovering between 1300 and 1500 calories a day for the most part, except a couple days when I was under 1000. Those are the days I gained weight.

I guess it will take me a while to get used to this, just like any other change in habit. I quit smoking 5 years ago, and it definitely took a while to get used to that! I have been keeping up my exercise, going to the gym every other day and working with a trainer once a week. I hope to work up to going to the gym 5 or 6 times a week, and to increase the amount of exercise I’m doing. Right now I’m up to two ten minute sessions on the bike, and some weight work in between. Oh and modified squats. Baby steps, right?

I’ll try to update this every day. Its another habit to get used to LOL

I go for my stress test and heart ultrasound tomorrow, wish me luck!

Good luck to all y’all on this journey!

Gina

Day 5

Looks like I missed posting on days 3 and 4 :-(  But, this morning I weighed and it looks like I’ve lost 5 lbs! I was 309.6 and now I’m 304.2. I hope its not a fluke. I met with my trainer again today and he had me doing different exercises than I did the beginning of the week. It was a bit more difficult, which is only natural. I have been staying on plan though.

Wednesday (day 3) was very busy, with a trip to the cardiologist and the gym and a massive food shopping and some other miscellaneous errands. Yesterday (day 4) I crashed and slept most of the day. That’s what my body does when I “overdo it”, as they say. And I definitely overdid it on Wednesday.

The cardiologist said I do need the stress test  and also an ultrasound of my heart, so those are scheduled for the 18th. Not looking forward to that. I go back for the results on the 23rd. I hope everything turns out okay.

So far, so good I think. I’m going to do my best to stay with this new way of eating. Hopefully I’ll be able to stop measuring everything I eat at some point. Some of the portion sizes seem a bit ridiculous, but that may just be because I overate for so many years. Seriously, who eats 1/2 C of pasta for dinner? When the pasta IS the dinner? I can see 1/2 C as a side dish…. my perceptions may be way off though.

That’s all for now. Good luck to the rest of y’all on this journey!

Day Two

Well, today I slept most of the day. I don’t know if that’s because I gave up coffee as of this morning and I didn’t get my usual dose of caffeine, or it’s the depression, or the fibro… could be anything. My trainer said not to work out today so I didn’t go to the gym, but I did keep within my calorie budget. I’m a little hungry now, but its almost bedtime so I’m not going to worry about  it.

I’ve read a lot of good reviews about those Skechers Shape Ups, and I am considering getting a pair. I’ve read that they help with plantar fasciitis, which I have, and they help tone you up a little. It might be worth the $120. I’d have to get a men’s pair because the women’s would be too narrow.

Tomorrow is grocery shopping day. I’ll be buying all that healthy food, really for the first time. I’ve bought healthy things here and there but I generally manage to go off my “diets” pretty quickly. The longest I stuck with one was about 6 months. I’m trying to get it through my head that this is a lifestyle change, not a “diet”. That’s a hard concept for me. Can normal weight people eat fattening things sometimes? Or is fast food and eating out a no-no for the rest of my life? I guess once I get used to it, it won’t be so bad but I think in the beginning I’m going to be craving unhealthy things. It hasn’t been an issue yet because I’ve managed to stay under my calorie goal just eating less of what I normally eat. The fat is the problem. And all of the preservatives I guess. I gave up coffee because my creamer was adding over 300 calories and a bunch of fat to my diet. I’d rather give up coffee than drink it with non-fat creamer or worse, non-fat milk. Maybe that will change after some time has passed.

I ate too much fat today (and yesterday and the day before) according to Diet Power. Hopefully that will change once I get the healthier food. I also need to work on portions, I can eat half a bag of chips, no problem. I hate the thought of weighing and measuring everything I eat but I have gotten to the point that I don’t know what a normal portion is like.

I go to the cardiologist tomorrow. Oh! my doctors office called me today and told me I AM going through menopause! At 42! I stopped having periods 5 or 6 years ago, but I always though it was my weight that was causing me not to have them. They’ve always been irregular anyway, and I have PCOS to boot. Anyway, I just thought I’d share that. Now I know why I break out in a sweat for no particular reason, at least. Maybe I’ll find out I don’t even need the stress test. I hope.

Well, that’s all I have for today. Good luck to the rest of y’all on this journey!

Gina

That old saying, this is the first day of the rest of my life…

I just joined the 3FC Forums yesterday, along with hiring a trainer and joining a gym. I’m 42, and starting to have problems with my heart. My doctor referred me to a cardiologist last week (I go this Wednesday). That scared me. My starting weight is 309.6, and my first goal is 260 by the end of the year. My eventual goal is somewhere around 150. I don’t have a whole lot of writing experience, but I’ll do my best to keep up the blog.

I start my exercise program today at noon with my new trainer and he’s going to help me with a grocery list and food choices. I’ve tried other diets, WW and Jenny Craig, and they were not successful. I made up my own diet out of frozen low calorie entrées, and that worked for a while but it gets really boring eating the same thing every day. Plus those frozen entrées don’t taste that good. This time I am approaching it as a lifestyle change, a permanent change, not a diet.

I’ve never been very good at exercising and I hope to change that. I’ve never found an exercise I actually like, which is part of the problem. Also, I’m so big that just moving around is an effort and anything beyond that seems excessive sometimes. My weight is limiting me so much… I can’t use stairs very well, break out in a sweat walking through the grocery store or doing something as simple as cutting out fabric for a sewing project. My highest weight was over 350, and I couldn’t even walk through the grocery store then. Its embarrassing to go out in public.

I have a number of medical problems, some of which I hope to improve or resolve with losing weight, like high blood pressure, diabetes (type II), and high cholesterol. All are well managed with medication but I’d like to get off the meds if I can. I have some injuries to my neck and back and right side due to an accident, and I have some limitations as far as movement goes. The trainer (Nic) assures me we can work around those. I also have depression, and I have read that exercise can help depression so I am hopeful that maybe we can cut down my medicine there too. Now if exercise could change me from a pessimist to an optimist, I’d be in good shape!

I’ve used every excuse in the book for not exercising, not watching my diet, all that stuff. Now, like the title of this blog says, something’s gotta change. Me, I have to change. That’s a scary prospect. I’ve been fat most of my life, even as a child. Kids in school made fun of me and harassed me because of my weight. My mother overfed us, and it taught me to overeat as an adult. I need to learn when to stop eating, instead of automatically finishing everything on my plate. I need to learn to put more nutritious foods on that plate. I need to learn ways to cope with boredom, depression, emotion, etc. other than eating.

I’m using the Diet Power application to log my food and exercise. It’s a good program, very helpful and thorough. It gives you all sorts of metrics to judge your progress and helps you set goals. I used it once before, a few years ago on yet another diet, and it helped me a lot. The version has changed since then and I plan to upgrade this week. I have no affiliation with Diet Power, just a happy user. I would like to find an application for my BlackBerry that can help me keep track of what I’m eating on the go. I’ll have to research that.

This has turned into a novelette, so I’ll stop now. I may update this later after my first workout at the gym with my new trainer, Nic. Good luck to everyone else on this weight loss journey!

Gina

UPDATE

Went for my appointment at the gym. Nic the trainer went over my food log and said I wasn’t doing that bad but pointed out things I needed to change. I guess I’m going to have to give up coffee. The creamer adds a ton of fat to my diet and I don’t like the fat free creamer. I gave up coffee once before so it shouldn’t be so bad. I drink a lot of iced tea with lemon juice and Splenda in it also. At least it doesn’t have the calories and fat the coffee does.

He also gave me a list of foods to eat. As for working out, I did 3 sets of 10 steps on a platform and then sat down and stood up, 3 sets of 10 also. My legs felt weird and rubbery after. He said we are going to take it slow but also said if I follow the diet and exercise guidelines he gives me I might get to my first goal of 260 in four months! I can hardly believe that but I’ll have to take his word for it. I go back Wednesday to repeat what I did today and then I meet with him again on Friday. I’ll be going grocery shopping on Wednesday for a whole bunch of foreign (to me) food. Wish me luck!

Gina

Back again

Well, my cardiac catheterization went well, they found no blockages! It was hard on me and I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather for the last couple of days. I still can’t go to the gym till the doctor clears me in a couple of weeks :(  I still managed to lose over 10 lbs for June, so that’s great!

My first goal is to be at or below 260 by the end of this year. I’ve dipped under 300 a few times now, and I keep fluctuating between the high 200’s and 300. I guess that’s just the way weight loss goes… down one day, up the next. My eventual goal is 150 by the end of next year.

Hope y’all are doing great!

Gina