That old saying, this is the first day of the rest of my life…

I just joined the 3FC Forums yesterday, along with hiring a trainer and joining a gym. I’m 42, and starting to have problems with my heart. My doctor referred me to a cardiologist last week (I go this Wednesday). That scared me. My starting weight is 309.6, and my first goal is 260 by the end of the year. My eventual goal is somewhere around 150. I don’t have a whole lot of writing experience, but I’ll do my best to keep up the blog.

I start my exercise program today at noon with my new trainer and he’s going to help me with a grocery list and food choices. I’ve tried other diets, WW and Jenny Craig, and they were not successful. I made up my own diet out of frozen low calorie entrĂ©es, and that worked for a while but it gets really boring eating the same thing every day. Plus those frozen entrĂ©es don’t taste that good. This time I am approaching it as a lifestyle change, a permanent change, not a diet.

I’ve never been very good at exercising and I hope to change that. I’ve never found an exercise I actually like, which is part of the problem. Also, I’m so big that just moving around is an effort and anything beyond that seems excessive sometimes. My weight is limiting me so much… I can’t use stairs very well, break out in a sweat walking through the grocery store or doing something as simple as cutting out fabric for a sewing project. My highest weight was over 350, and I couldn’t even walk through the grocery store then. Its embarrassing to go out in public.

I have a number of medical problems, some of which I hope to improve or resolve with losing weight, like high blood pressure, diabetes (type II), and high cholesterol. All are well managed with medication but I’d like to get off the meds if I can. I have some injuries to my neck and back and right side due to an accident, and I have some limitations as far as movement goes. The trainer (Nic) assures me we can work around those. I also have depression, and I have read that exercise can help depression so I am hopeful that maybe we can cut down my medicine there too. Now if exercise could change me from a pessimist to an optimist, I’d be in good shape!

I’ve used every excuse in the book for not exercising, not watching my diet, all that stuff. Now, like the title of this blog says, something’s gotta change. Me, I have to change. That’s a scary prospect. I’ve been fat most of my life, even as a child. Kids in school made fun of me and harassed me because of my weight. My mother overfed us, and it taught me to overeat as an adult. I need to learn when to stop eating, instead of automatically finishing everything on my plate. I need to learn to put more nutritious foods on that plate. I need to learn ways to cope with boredom, depression, emotion, etc. other than eating.

I’m using the Diet Power application to log my food and exercise. It’s a good program, very helpful and thorough. It gives you all sorts of metrics to judge your progress and helps you set goals. I used it once before, a few years ago on yet another diet, and it helped me a lot. The version has changed since then and I plan to upgrade this week. I have no affiliation with Diet Power, just a happy user. I would like to find an application for my BlackBerry that can help me keep track of what I’m eating on the go. I’ll have to research that.

This has turned into a novelette, so I’ll stop now. I may update this later after my first workout at the gym with my new trainer, Nic. Good luck to everyone else on this weight loss journey!

Gina

UPDATE

Went for my appointment at the gym. Nic the trainer went over my food log and said I wasn’t doing that bad but pointed out things I needed to change. I guess I’m going to have to give up coffee. The creamer adds a ton of fat to my diet and I don’t like the fat free creamer. I gave up coffee once before so it shouldn’t be so bad. I drink a lot of iced tea with lemon juice and Splenda in it also. At least it doesn’t have the calories and fat the coffee does.

He also gave me a list of foods to eat. As for working out, I did 3 sets of 10 steps on a platform and then sat down and stood up, 3 sets of 10 also. My legs felt weird and rubbery after. He said we are going to take it slow but also said if I follow the diet and exercise guidelines he gives me I might get to my first goal of 260 in four months! I can hardly believe that but I’ll have to take his word for it. I go back Wednesday to repeat what I did today and then I meet with him again on Friday. I’ll be going grocery shopping on Wednesday for a whole bunch of foreign (to me) food. Wish me luck!

Gina

2 Comments so far

  1. mothermavis on June 7th, 2010

    Good luck! You have taken the first, hardest steps!

  2. gshillitani on June 7th, 2010

    Thank you, mothermavis! I’m really hoping that this will be successful!

    Gina

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