I want to be the “Hot Girl”…

I’m trying to get my mojo back again…

Posted grneyedmustang on March 4th, 2010 | Filed under South Beach Diet, depression, dieting, exercise, weight loss

I’ve been MIA for quite a while. Just a quick status update:

I am really trying to get my South Beach Diet Mojo back. I will say that I haven’t gained a LOT of weight, but I have put on approximately ten pounds. I guess that’s okay, considering I’ve been on the beach since 2008. That does signify that I haven’t completely reverted back to the way I used to eat and that I have made some changes overall in the way I eat, so I’m proud of myself. However, I can’t get ahead of myself and start thinking that “I’ve arrived” because I am far from it. So here’s where I’ve slipped over the past few months:

• The holidays. Nuff said. I have had enough homemade cheesecake during Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s to get me in a WORLD of hurt. I think my saviors were the gym, and when I knew I was going to blow it (i.e. New Year’s Eve, etc.) I really tried to watch what I was eating before the event.
• WORK. Ugh. I am having a super stressful time at work and really trying to deal with it without turning to emotional eating. I am definitely an emotional eater - either I lose my appetite completely (this is usually when I’m depressed, and with me, stress and depression usually go hand in hand) or I want to eat sweets. Which brings me to my next bullet -
• Girl Scout Cookies. WHY WHY WHY do I do this to myself? Two weeks ago, I fought with a box of thin mints. I won the battle, but I’m sure they won the war if I step on the scale. I have two more boxes at work, just sitting there, and I think I’m going to give (most) of them away. I also decided that next year I’m not buying ANY AT ALL. Sorry Girl Scouts of America, next year you WILL NOT TEMPT ME. I’ll make a donation or something - maybe I’ll buy a few boxes and send them to the troops - but THEY WILL NOT BE IN MY HOUSE IN 2011.
• The Gym. I’ve been doing this whole weight loss thing long enough to know I do NOT lose without working out. I also know that I feel much better mentally and physically when I work out. So why is it so hard for me to go to the gym? Especially since I’ve been under so much stress at work, I only want to come home and play with my new boyfriend - my (new) playstation 2. Don’t laugh…
• Alcohol. Ok, I have determined that drinking on the weekends is killing my weight loss (and probably my liver as well). Just kidding, but hanging out with the girls is hampering my weight loss. I have decided that I am not drinking until my birthday - and even then, it will only be wine. So that means there will be NO WINE, NO VODKA, NO LEMON DROP MARTINIS. I think my waist and my wallet will thank me on this one.
• Depression. All this stress I have been under has me feeling very depressed. Not to mention other things going on in my life - most notably, I found out about a month ago that I have female pattern baldness and am losing my hair. I have started injections (hopefully no side effects, please) but my dermatologist informed me I may never have a full head of hair again and may have to wear wigs for the rest of my life. I am trying not to be bummed out about it and think positive, but it still sucks sometimes. I am on blood pressure medication and one of the side effects is hair loss; it would be nice if I lost enough weight to come off of it and my hair would come back. We’ll see.

So I’m back on the beach…wish me luck…because life is really testing me right now. I booked a LOVELY vacation to Playa Del Carmen in Mexico for May, so there’s even more reason for me to behave myself and lose more weight.