I want to be the “Hot Girl”…

Well it’s over…and I’m trying to “Get Right” again…

Posted grneyedmustang on July 3rd, 2009 | Filed under General, South Beach Diet, Thanksgiving, depression, plateau, relationships, running, stress, weight loss

Well, my “pseudo relationship” is over - I hit that 2.5 month mark and couldn’t make it past that. The last few weeks, he just seemed very distant…like he wasn’t interested anymore. We talked on the phone in the beginning for hours. Went on dates quite a bit. Lately, I was getting to talk to the little old lady on his voicemail more and more. You know, the one that tells you “I’m sorry, but six seven eight four four eight three seven four one is unavailable. Please leave your message after the tone. *beep*”. I’d leave a message and he wouldn’t call back. He was cancelling dates, we weren’t spending any time together, and the only time I’d see him was in passing, when all our friends would have a get together, he’d be there, and I’d be there. So last Sunday evening, I went to see him and asked him if he was still interested in me. He went round and round and never really gave me a straight answer. So I came out and asked him if he just wanted to be friends (which to me is my way of breaking up with you on a good note, but I don’t really want to be your friend), to which he replied yes. I left, and cried in the car all the way home. I really liked him, but another one bites the dust. At this point in my life, I should be used to this…it seems to happen with everyone I date. Honestly, though, the hurt doesn’t diminish each time this happens to me. I was in a funk about it through Monday. Tuesday I came around. Today my feelings are still a little hurt, I have a few questions that I’m sure will remain unanswered through the end of time (when did you first notice that you weren’t interested in me romantically anymore? How long were you going to let this go on before you said anything? Why did you lie to me about wanting to be exclusive?) - but I’m not crying anymore and am trying to move on with my life.

So with that being said, dietwise, I’m doing pretty shittily (is that a word?). I’m not eating a lot (which is bad in and of itself) but I haven’t been getting the amount of veggies in that I need to eat. I am also not drinking enough water. I only went to the gym 3 times last week. I am proud of the fact that I haven’t been on a “sugar bender” - you know, when you are depressed and eat all kinds of junk, like Ben and Jerry’s ice cream, publix cake, chocolate chip cookies, etc. I am going to do a phase 1.5 next week though, so I can get back on the veggie train.

Que sera sera…