I want to be the “Hot Girl”…

Post cruise…aww mannnnn!!!

Posted grneyedmustang on February 13th, 2009 | Filed under South Beach Diet, cruising, dieting, exercise, vacation, weight loss

So I’m back in Atlanta, back to reality, and back on the diet. When I got home, I stepped on the scale and it said 240!!!!! Aw, that really sucks!!! I’m really hoping and praying that most of that is water weight because God only knows how much sodium was in the food I consumed. Wednesday I got back on the gym, and I’ve been phase I’ing it all week. So far, I’ve lost 2 of the six pounds (I was down to 234) I gained.

The other day I was walking through the store, and I was looking at all the goodies in Publix’s bakery section (HOW EVIL!). I would walk by something - birthday cake, cookies, bread…and I kept thinking about how I’d like to eat one but I can’t because it’s not good for me. And a revelation occurred to me (that I think I’ve realized before but I’ve put it on the back burner):

IN ORDER TO MAINTAIN MY WEIGHT LOSS I MAY HAVE TO BATTLE WITH THE URGE TO EAT SWEETS AND STUFF FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Is this healthy? Is this normal? I’m hoping someone who’s maintained their weight loss for more than a year can chime in and let me know if this is the reality I’m facing once I lose my last 45 pounds…because I’m afraid it is.

Will there ever be a day when I don’t have to look at sweets and see them as evil? Will there ever be a day when I can look at a box of Krispy Kreme Donuts at work and don’t have to listen to the little angel (no Paula, you’ve done so well on your diet) and the little devil (awww, come on, you can have just one) in my mind battle it out? Where I can just look at the box and walk away?

By the way, I had the Krispy Kreme Challenge this morning at work - AND I WON.

Here’s a few pictures from the cruise: