Committing hara-kiri
Cheating, Goals, Weigh in April 14th, 2009The last 10 days have been horrible (discipline-wise). Oh I’ve had fun. I’ve eaten foods that I’d not allowed myself for the last 8 months or so. And it seemed like a dam broke open. I knew it would be a difficult month. First I had the work trip and then my brother was in town for 5 days, which meant our favourite meals at home. And I’d told myself that this month I would be ok with not losing any, as I’d lost a lot last month. So this month would be a maintenance month. And I ate and ate (but exercised to make up for the food excesses). Unfortunately for me, 1.5 hrs of exercise in a day does not make up for gluttony for the rest of the day. And so, here I am 4 lbs heavier than I was at the beginning of the month. This is so sickening. I can’t believe that I did this to myself. This is hara-kiri. I knowingly let myself go. Now, I’m taking charge of my life again. I am back to being careful about food. And no cheating AT ALL. I’ve realised that a little cheating here and there adds up to a lot of cheating, which in turn adds up to 4 lbs!
Anyways, I have set myself up with 3 challenges- with my Dad, my friend S and my Bro.
The first is with my Dad. We’re competing for who gets to 74 kgs first (162.8 lbs). This bet has been on for a while. And I am hoping that now with my newly resolved will-power I shall achieve it by first week of May.
The next challenge is with my friend S. Both of us have to lose weight. Though she has a lot less to lose. Our challenge is that we both lose around 10 pounds by June 26th (3 months from March 26th which was when we shook hands on the challenge). So I’m aiming for 154 lbs and she for 121 lbs. (She’s around 5 inches shorter than me)
The third and last challenge is with my brother. We both want to eventually lose around 20-25 lbs. So our challenge is who gets there first. My target is 143 lbs and his is 187 lbs. We’ve given ourselves till November. Which gives us enough time to realistically achieve our goals.
Phew! That’s three challenges I just have to win. And the ones with my Dad and my Bro are bets more than challenges. My father refused to bet anything. But with my Bro, we’ve agreed that whoever loses has to visit the other for a weekend/ holiday. With the increasing airfares, this is going to be one costly bet to lose!
The stats today:-
Weight: 169 lbs
Exercise: 50 mins cardio + abs + stretches + 15 mins walk to gym
April 16th, 2009 at 3:25 pm
My reply over at Eileens blog:
You know the challenge is just a tool to try to keep you on the right path. It was fun when I was in first place for a fleeting moment. The challenge has made me do that extra 15 minutes and has made me NOT drink that second Coke because I only allow myself one a day. If I’m halfway through the day and still good on food, it helps me reconsider messing it up just for the SAKE of a virtual star. I took a walk the other day and came back 7 minutes shy of the hour. I could’ve “called” it an hour and no one would know, but I would and I didn’t want to cheat myself so I found another way to get that 7 minutes in by going to the gym and doing 37 minutes on the treadmill. I did the challenge last month even though I didn’t really try to do anything until mid month because I had a trip that interfered with being on plan. Ultimately , to me, it’s not about how well I do, but a way of keeping track and being inspired. Hope this helps! Hang in there.