Butterflies and Rainbows

Looks like walking with Hubby is one of my tickets to weightloss.  Although we haven’t been walking since Thursday, I managed to have a 3.2 pound loss for today’s weigh-in. :D 

This weekend was a tough one.  My Cody, my oldest fur-baby, passed away on Friday.  He had been sick with heart disease for a little over a year and his arthritis was getting worse.  The poor guy could hardly get around anymore and was totally deaf and going blind.  I’m not really sure he even still recognized us.  I miss him…..especially, the Cody that I knew and loved for years.  I managed not to eat for comfort this weekend.  I kinda amazed myself, but I knew that I had a loss on the scales and I really wanted to maintain the loss for my official weigh-in today.  So, despite the grief and this horrible cold I’m fighting, I stayed on-plan. 

Today, Hubby and I went to the pound and adopted a puppy.  I know that most people wouldn’t understand.  They would think that I’m trying to replace my Cody.  That’s not the case at all.  It actually helps me with the grieving process to have another little one to love and take care of.  Hubby has always wanted a bigger dog (we have a Chihuahua and one of her’s and Cody’s sons.) So, we adopted a part lab mutt.  He’s really quite pretty……all black with some white on one paw and his chest.  His name is Beau and he’s four months old. 

Hubby and I are on vacation today and the girls are on Spring break.  We’re not doing anything special….just relaxing.  We do plan on making it  to the Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods.  We’ve never been and I’ve always wanted to head over.  I’m planning on quitting my use of Splenda and using some agave nectar.  I’m hoping we can head over tomorrow or the next day or so.  And, I plan on doing some spring cleaning.  The closets are getting full already and the garage is embarassing.

Wow….I sure was chatty today!  I hope everyone has a great on-plan day tomorrow.

I’ve been MIA, lost, crazy,confused etc,etc,etc. The old unaccountable off-plan ‘me’ who doesn’t care anymore tried to come back and take over my body. It was a tough battle and the new ‘me’ almost lost, but I’m back on-plan and fighting the fight again. Honestly, this is the only time I’ve ever felt myself in serious danger of totally quitting this lifestyle change. I allowed myself to get caught up in the negative thinking and concentrating on how difficult this is and what I’m giving up. Basically, I had a big ole pity party for myself and decided to rebel. I’m not sure who I thought I was proving a point to?
I forgot about what I’ve gained so far and what I still have to gain from staying on-plan…being healthy, feeling better, more confidence, etc etc etc. It is extremely difficult to get back on-plan today, but I’m finally at the point where I’m thinking again about the alternative and it isn’t very appealing at all. I’m not 100% sure why I allowed myself to go so far away, but I can’t afford to wait until I get it all figured out.  That could take years! So, I’m picking myself up yet again and I’m going in the right direction today. 

Today was my weigh-in day. I only gained 1.2 pounds. I was expecting a lot more and was expecting to be back in the 230’s. I’m worked very hard to get out of the 230’s, so I’m feeling very optimistic today. I have an enjoyable day of sugar detox ahead of me. Breakfast, lunch and snacks are planned. Hubby has agreed to get back on-plan with me, so dinner will be on-plan, too.

Today is my official weekly weigh-in day and I’ve gained 1.4 pounds.  I’m so glad the weekend is over.  It was not a great on-plan weekend for me and I’m ready to get my head back into my plan.  I’m not 100% sure of what exactly happened.  I don’t think it was one thing in particular.  I think I just allowed a series of stressful days build up my frustration and anxiety until I exploded and turned to my familiar remedy…food. But, my mantra is “Quitting is not an option anymore” so I’m still here and trying to get this weight off and learn new ways of coping with the stresses of life.

Last night, I managed to remember to put on the crock pot for my steelcut oatmeal.  So, I’m starting the day off on the right foot with my healthy breakfast.  I also realize that I must make exercising a priority despite my heavy workload.  I must make myself a priority again.  I’ve decided that I’ll only work occasional overtime from now on.  My health is too important and my family needs me, too. 

Went for my 6 month follow-up mammogram of the left breast today.   The cyst still looks like a cyst and has not grown or changed.  Yay! Good news, indeed!

Just realized that I’ve not updated in a couple of days.  So, here’s where I stand right now.  Yesterday was my official weigh-in day and I dropped another .8 of a pound.  This makes 4 weeks in a row that I’ve had a loss.  I can’t remember the last time I did this!  The bad news is that my 365 day challenge to myself didn’t last too long.  Made it through day 10, then went to out to dinner and didn’t plan ahead.  Its a very bad idea to look at the menu and smell the foods while trying to decide what to order.  From now on, I’ll know what I’m ordering before I step foot in any restaurant.  No more unplanned meals. I’ve decided to revise my 365 day challenge.  I’m going to add up my on-plan days regardless if I miss a day on the way.  I’ll see how long it takes me to reach a year’s worth of days.  So, today is day 12.

Lost 1.4 pounds!  This is my third weekly loss in a row and I’m feeling quite excited about being on-plan and meeting my goals this year.  One of my goals is to be in Onederland by my birthday, July 14th.  I have 21 weeks to go.  If I lose 1.38 pounds a week until then, I’ll make it.  That seems like a very reasonable goal. 

Today is day 5 of my 365 day committment.   Doing well.  My solution of keeping myself busy on the weekend is working.  I wasn’t tempted to overeat and my house looks great!

Yippee!  Down 2.4 pounds which puts me in the 220’s!  I found the solution to weekend overeating…..keep myself too busy to think about going off-plan.  My house is looking great and I get to post a great loss.

Today’s weigh-in went well…1.6 pounds lost.  I love starting off the week on a high note!  I probably could of had an even better loss if I had stayed on-plan Saturday evening and worked out every day.  I went to a Ladies night on Saturday and I grazed all evening.  There were some very yummy foods there!  We will be having a Ladies night every month, so I really need to learn how to handle these times.  Maybe I will save some calories and exercise really hard so that I can have an off-plan night.  But, I really do need to think about these weekends.  I don’t handle the schedule changes very well.  I seem to struggle every single weekend. 

Starting today, I will be following Jillian Michael’s plan from here book, Winning by Losing.  The foods I eat won’t be changing.  However, I have calculated how many calories I should consume this week in order to lose 2-3 pounds.  Also, I need to start working out hard every day….sweat equity!  Just think….if I can lose a consistent 2-3 pounds every week, I could reach my goal of 150 this year.  Wow…..that would be a dream come true.

Today was weigh-in day.  I’m sorry to report that I’ve gained 1.6 pounds.  I allowed myself to give into self pity about not losing weight last week.  I tried to comfort myself with food…..makes no sense at all.  The longer I’m on this journey, the more I realize how much my emotions have contributed to my weight problems.

This morning, I had my yearly exam with my primary doctor.  My blood pressure and urinalysis were ok.  I’ll hear about my bloodwork in 7-14 days.  I really hope I haven’t developed high cholesterol.  My Dad, who has always been thin and active, has high cholesterol and must take medication.  My brother, who is 4 years younger than me, was diagnosed with high cholesterol and high blood pressure about 6 months ago.  Like me, he’s struggled with his weight.  I’ve done a lot of thinking about my health today and I’ve realized that I can’t continue to gamble with something so very valuable.  I know the dangers of being overweight, not exercising and eating unhealthy foods.  Today, I am tired from getting to bed late…but, I’m not providing myself with anymore excuses.  I will get on the treadmill today for at least 30 minutes and I will get to bed on-time tonight….and, it goes without saying…I’ll eat on-plan. 

Hope everyone has a great on-plan day.

Rhonda

Made it through another on-plan day.  Is it two weeks of repeating something that makes it a habit….or was it 6 weeks?  I find it hard to believe that staying on-plan will ever be a habit for me, but we shall see.  My plan was for 1700 calories today, but I’m running a little short.  Maybe I have enough left for a small glass of wine? :)  Didn’t get on the treadmill today.  I really need to get a handle on this exercise thing.  I know the scales won’t continue to move down without the exercise.

Oh….almost forgot….today was weigh-in.  Lost .8 of a pound.  Not too shabby considering I was up 3 pounds on Thursday morning!

Hope everyone had a great on-plan day.

Rhonda