Butterflies and Rainbows

I’ve been MIA, lost, crazy,confused etc,etc,etc. The old unaccountable off-plan ‘me’ who doesn’t care anymore tried to come back and take over my body. It was a tough battle and the new ‘me’ almost lost, but I’m back on-plan and fighting the fight again. Honestly, this is the only time I’ve ever felt myself in serious danger of totally quitting this lifestyle change. I allowed myself to get caught up in the negative thinking and concentrating on how difficult this is and what I’m giving up. Basically, I had a big ole pity party for myself and decided to rebel. I’m not sure who I thought I was proving a point to?
I forgot about what I’ve gained so far and what I still have to gain from staying on-plan…being healthy, feeling better, more confidence, etc etc etc. It is extremely difficult to get back on-plan today, but I’m finally at the point where I’m thinking again about the alternative and it isn’t very appealing at all. I’m not 100% sure why I allowed myself to go so far away, but I can’t afford to wait until I get it all figured out.  That could take years! So, I’m picking myself up yet again and I’m going in the right direction today. 

Today was my weigh-in day. I only gained 1.2 pounds. I was expecting a lot more and was expecting to be back in the 230’s. I’m worked very hard to get out of the 230’s, so I’m feeling very optimistic today. I have an enjoyable day of sugar detox ahead of me. Breakfast, lunch and snacks are planned. Hubby has agreed to get back on-plan with me, so dinner will be on-plan, too.

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