My youngest DD woke me at 5:00 this morning…bad dream. I had trouble falling back to sleep as my brain decided that it was time to do some deep thinking! The main thing on my mind was the struggle I’ve been having lately with staying on-plan. Last week, I was struggling to get my project completed by Friday and I found myself constantly going into the kitchen and looking through the cabinets and the refrigerator…and sometimes grabbing something to eat when I wasn’t hungry and it wasn’t meal or snack time. Then, I crashed and burned over the weekend and went on a binge. Yesterday was another off-plan day. During my early morning think session, I realized that I’ve allowed myself to forget the main reasons why I’m doing this. Yes, I want to look better…who wouldn’t? But, I also want to be a healthy active person for the remainder of my life. No more sitting on the sidelines and allowing my weight to hold me back. I don’t want to let life pass me by. I want to travel, to enjoy life, to be independent for as long as possible. I want to be like my Dad! I had lost my focus, but, for the first time in a while, I’m feeling 100% optimistic and determined to get this weight off, to develop a daily exercise habit and to eat the foods that benefit my body the most! Today, I’m having one of my 1200 calorie days and will do 60 minutes of walk/run on the treadmill. I’ve found my mojo! :carrot:
March 4th, 2008 at 10:41 am
I can relate regarding the side lines. My husband and I indulged in a trip to Costa Rica for our tenth anniversary a few years ago. It was everything that I had hoped for, just beautiful. When we were planning that trip, I visualized myself fit and energetic. But I just kept delaying getting started on a diet/exercise plan and ended up the same ol’ fat out of shape me when we got there. I had wanted desperately to get on the zip line. My husband did it by himself because I was too embarrassed and felt as though the employees would laugh at me (I didn’t even tell my husband the real reason I wasn’t going to get on the zip line).
Good for you on your positive attitude today! I am inspired
March 4th, 2008 at 11:10 pm
Totally with you about getting off those sidelines. I have been my own worst enemy lately but, like you, I have found my mojo again. Thanks for the inspiration. Keep up the good work.
March 5th, 2008 at 5:12 pm
Hey! My birthday is tomorrow the 6th. I’m glad you have me in your blogroll. you should add my WordPress blog cause I tend to post there more