dol·drums - a dull, listless, depressed mood; low spirits.
I’ve got them…big time! And, I’ve been fighting the urge to overeat all day long. I have that hunger that nothing fills. No, my stomach is not rumbling. And, I’ve had a very generous 1700 calories today, so I know that this is not real hunger. So, I took one of my fingers-and-toes wrinkling soaks in the bathtub and did some thinking. I believe I know why I’ve got the doldrums. Doesn’t make it any easier, but at least I can try to find a way of dealing with them that doesn’t include food.
Yesterday, I had my yearly evaluation for my job. I’m less than pleased with my rating. Not that it was a bad rating…but, just average. I know for a fact that I’ve excelled at my job this year. Its so frustrating that management doesn’t recognize that fact! Arghh.
I’m very disappointed and frustrated with someone in my family who has become distant and uninterested in me and my precious little family. My heart hurts when I think about what this person is missing by not spending time with my girls. “You make time for what is important to you.” This is what you’ve always told me…..so, where is the time? Seems like there isn’t any anymore.
Finances are tight around here again. We’ll probably never be rich….unless we happended to win the lottery one day. But, jeeze, it sure would be nice to be able to spend a little money sometimes. Its either feast or famine around here! I really shouldn’t complain. We have a beautiful home and very little debt other than a mortgage. But, I’d love to have the funds to re-decorate some rooms or be able to relax sometimes.
And, I miss E! I understand why they moved back to FL, but I hate that I now have to live without seeing her and her family every day. And, I miss having a woman to talk with. Hubby tries, but I really don’t want someone to tell me how to fix everything. 
KWIM?
I know that my doldrums will pass one day soon. They always do. For now, I really need to find a way to make this weight loss journey exciting again. I refuse to let this de-rail my journey. Despite my current mood, time will continue to pass. When I get past this, I want to be a few pounds lighter and a bit more healthy….not fatter and even more depressed. Purple has decided to follow Selina’s lead and start aiming for 365 straight days of being on-plan. I’ve thought about this off and on for the last few months and I’ve decided to try this also. For me, being on-plan will be staying within my calorie alottment for each day. Right now, this is 1200-1700 calories. I really do think I can do this! Also, I’ve decided to start the C25K program on March 1st. I’m excited to see if my weight loss gets quicker and more consisten when I start running every day. And, I’m hoping I can run in some kind of 5K this year.
If you’re reading this blog, I hope you have a great on-plan day and are successful at keeping your doldrums far away from you.
February 14th, 2008 at 9:41 am
Come on my dear…count your blessings and those dol drums will start to look smaller and smaller…
You are doing great on your weight loss and you have tons of friends right here!!!
Hope you have a Happy Valentine’s Day tooooo!!!!
Hugs to Ya!!!!
Judy
February 14th, 2008 at 5:31 pm
Hey there! Sorry you have been down in the dumps. It must be contagious, as I have been there the last few days myself. I am sorry about your job evaluation. My husband was saying the other day that there was so much that employees do that the boss will never know about unless you are one to toot your own horn.
Could you call your friend on the phone? Maybe get a free nights and weekend plan? I know how much friends matter to our mental well being.
I’m excited that you’re going to start C25k. I have a few suggestions if you don’t mind. Please get some good shoes, preferably go to a running shoe store and get fitted. I know it sounds like an expense that can be over looked but this is so important. I injured myself badly because I was stubborn about my shoes. Turns out that I have an odd gait and it caused me twist my ankle about 5 weeks into the program.
Go slow! If you can’t breathe, slow down some more! As long as you’re going faster than walking, you’re running!
Also, please don’t run everyday. That is a good way to get injured. I am only posting these suggestions because I want you to have a good (and long) running career. It is so easy to get injured right off the bat, but it is the best feeling in the world once you run that first 5k. Take it slow, take it easy, you can do it! I can’t wait to see you post your first race report.