Butterflies and Rainbows

Yuck, I can’t stand to be around my ownself these days!  I am one big ole mean grump.  I know why, too……and I can’t do a darn thing about it.   You probably think its PMS…Nope…I’m right smack- dab in the middle of ‘mental-pause’ and I’ve run out of  hormones! :O  We moved two months ago and I had to find a doctor in my area that prescribes my kind of hormones(bio-identical.)  Because I’m a new patient, I cant get in to see her until the 14th of this month.   Well, I cut down on my dosage so they would last longer, but I ran out about 10 days ago.  At first, I thought….”hmmm, maybe I don’t really need them afterall” because I felt just fine.  It didnt take long for me to get some big reminders of why I take the darn things…….my feet are swollen, I’m not sleeping through the night,  I’m starting to get hot flashes, my temper is hot, hot, hot and quick, quick, quick….and my weight loss isnt keeping up with my efforts…. a big .6 of a pound for my efforts last week.   Of course, I’m not exercising. (sigh)  Add to this, I’m staying up way to late watching Big Brother After Dark episodes and getting way too little sleep…..Yeah, I know…..I’m rotting my brain with this stuff! (per my SIL….but, what does she know? )

You know what really amazes me?  Through this time, I haven’t once gone off plan.  I’ve thought about comforting myself with food….but, I’ve been able to squash these thoughts quickly and stay on course.  This time, its for real.

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