Sometimes, it feels good to be a martyr.
Have you ever started a diet, then went off-plan because of a special event? ie….birthday, anniversary, vacation,etc. Have you ever postponed starting a diet because special events are coming up and its just not a convenient time?
That is the story of my life and of my yo-yo dieting history. There is always a reason to veer off-plan……and staying on-plan is never convenient. Just look at where this thinking got me…..fatter than ever before and feeling absolutely miserable!
This weekend, we have family guests at our home. Uh-oh…another “opportunity” to indulge myself and go off-plan? No…not this time. This time, I am quite enjoying playing the part of on-plan martyr! So, everyone is enjoying a large delicious breakfast of omelets, sausage,bacon and bagels with cream cheese? Big deal…..I’ll eat my bowl of steelcut oatmeal, then excuse myself to go shower and make the bed. So, everyone is munching out on chips, cheetos and ice cream? No problem, I’ll eat my 1/2 cup of SF ice cream, then go log onto 3FC and read the encouraging uplifting posts of my fellow on-plan friends. So, everyone wants to go out to eat and they want to go to a restaurant that doesnt have much on-plan for me? I’ll just eat before I go and enjoy a diet coke at the restaurant…..afterall, its all about the interaction and not the food, right?
Why have I chosen to stay on-plan and not grab this opportunity to indulge myself? After all, that is my modus operandi. Could I have finally reached the point where I realize that no indulgence is worth staying fat and unhealthy for the rest of my life? Has something finally clicked for me? I think so…..I hope so……I pray so.
July 28th, 2007 at 5:32 pm
Your thoughts make a lot of sense. Is being overweight convenient? Absolutely not, therefore neither should healthful eating. I think part of the issue is that sometimes convenience overpowers everything else, but we need to change our way of thinking to change ourselves. Sounds like you are on the right track for this- good for you!
July 28th, 2007 at 7:06 pm
I agree so much and see myself so much in the same place as you! I have a house full of kids (friends of my kids) this weekend and so far, while they had fried chicken with mashed potatoes and gravy I had grilled chicken and salad with carefully measured salad dressing…they ate pizza and I ate leftover grilled chicken and an apple, they had pop, I had bottled water…but I feel so much better for it! I am so sick of being fat - sick of clothes that are too tight and being out of breath, and ankles and knees that hurt… I have got to be committed! No veering off as you put it so well. Thanks! Your post has encouraged me to keep on keeping on!!!
July 29th, 2007 at 3:41 am
Good on you for keeping on track! I know that is one of my big weaknesses, always the excuse maker. Thank you for posting that - it’s very encouraging to the rest of us who keep slipping into the old pattern!
July 30th, 2007 at 4:01 pm
Ah yes, the event excuse! I know that one!
It sounds like you are doing really great right now and you have your mind in the right place! That’s quite a step forward, being able to find ways to stay on plan while in the midst of others who aren’t! Congrats!
July 30th, 2007 at 5:41 pm
Rhonda I’m so glad that something has clicked for you. It did for me back in January and now I know that I won’t be fat forever. It tastes so much better to eat a bowl of raspberries than a bowl of chocolate covered cherries.