Still Eating …
Thanks to those of you who’ve left comments! It’s always fun to find out that someone else is reading your blog, isn’t it? Yes, I have gained back every ounce of the 25 lbs I lost earlier this year. Sad that I have to start all over again, but at least now I know it’s possible — I CAN do it.
I’m still in full-on eating mode. Breakfast once again was pumpkin pie — blech — it was all dried out from sitting in the fridge for 3 days, but I managed to get it down anyway. Lunch was a Big & Tasty at McDonalds — the meal, not just the sandwich. With a DIET Coke, of course. And 2 apple pies for dessert, because they’re 2 for $1 so you HAVE to get both.
Then I went to visit one of my sisters, who’s an excellent cook, and asked while I was there “do you have any good homemade stuff to eat?” Of course, she did. But instead of that, I chose a pile of Whoppers malted milk balls.
You’d think I’d be pretty nauseous by now, but after I left her house, I stopped at Domino’s to pick up cheese bread and cinnastix for my mother (who’s even more overweight than I, and didn’t need that) and a pizza for my husband. Of course, while I was there I figured I might as well have a box of cinnastix myself — so I did.
Now I’m home, reading here and wondering whether I’ll explode before New Year’s. That’s how long I currently plan to keep this up. It’s sort of “intentional insanity”. Like one of my sisters said today, “by the time New Years rolls around, I’ll be so sick of junk that I’ll actually welcome a crisp green or two.” That’s right!! I’m indulging every craving I can think of right now to get it out of my system (sort of a month-long “last supper”, I suppose — even though I know from experience that last suppers don’t really do much other than fatten you up even more before you “start”).
But that’s alright. Like I said, I’m still getting ready. I’ll grab the bull by the horns exactly when I’ve planned.
December 28th, 2008 at 8:39 pm
Hi, welcome to the 3fc blogs!
I find that blogging everyday helps me stay motivated.
Even if noone reads it, it is still out there that i binged or ate good or did or didn’t workout.
In my yo-yo dieting experience, eating empty carbs makes me crave more empty carbs. If i eat healthier foods i tend to stop after a serving.
And… i never get full. Never. A lot of times when i binge that’s what i am going for, the feeling of being full.
We just have to get that idea out of our heads.
Good luck and keep blogging. I appreciate your honesty.
-Billie
http://3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/billie/
December 28th, 2008 at 10:35 pm
the last supper, i’ve done this before, so many time before, and it did not work. at all. but all the best to you..