So, yesterday was cinco de mayo. The fifth of may. I worked 10 hours on a Saturday to make up for time off from being sick during the week. While I was working (date and initial every note you put in) I realized it was 5-5-12. Exactly 7 years ago I graduated college. This is not where I saw myself then. Oh sure, the house and the husband, but work and my personal appearance…not so much. I never expected to hit 264. And honestly even when I was there I did not think I looked fat. But looking at pictures of it now, I can see a difference. I have always hated taking photos of myself, but I have been trying to record my trip, for posterity, but mostly just to keep myself motivated. I can look at pictures of me from 6 months ago and now and see a difference that I cannot see looking into a mirror.
Also, the scale yesterday hit 225. I have not weighed that since 2008 when I got married. It was another kind of shock. Seriously, I never paid much attention to the scale, I have only ever tried dieting a couple of times in my 32 years on this planet and although I have always been overweight, for the most part I took it as par for the course. The sky is blue, grass is green, Gail is fat. Even when I was lifting weights and working out daily, I was not thin. I am not now, and will never be thin, I have very broad shoulders and will always have a big chest and hips. It is just the way my genetics work, and I am totally cool with that.
But I do want to take off a bit more of the surplus Gail, to be healthy. I love my husband and I want to be with him for as long as possible. Maybe that is greedy of me. But I can handle that. Now I am sitting here, getting ready to play Dragon Age on my computer, he is making low carb lemon breakfast cookies. with eggs, oatmeal, protein powder, and lemon. I will be glad when I get off this diet, just so I can make some real food. I did have real food for the last two weeks being sick, and actually lost 3 pounds. So I know I can maintain that way. Once again, I just have to work at it. Signing off for now.