Downsizing August 20, 2013
So I keep having these dreams. In them I am all alone. They have been in different locales from the quiet woods to urban cities. In each of them I have a small space. One was a small studio apartment. One was a very small cabin similar to those tiny houses but just a little bit bigger. Once I was even living in a tent. I only have a few possessions in each. I have no clue where my husband or kids are. There doesn’t seem to be much interaction with others that are around. In the woods it is all about solitude. In the urban areas I go places and do things and clearly there are people nearby but no one that I associate with.
I can’t help but wonder what these dreams mean.
I think I’m going to start downsizing our belongings. There are things in this house that we no longer need, use or even want. It isn’t so much as needing to have a yard sale but I guess I better get some stuff cleaned up and start braving the buy, sell, trade group and start selling some of it. I see no reason to donate some of these things that I could make money on. Like the kids easel. They haven’t used it in quite some time. Or some of the dishes in the kitchen. Do I really need all of them? No. So room by room, I am going to start cleaning, sorting and either selling, donating or disposing.
Along with this downsizing theme I’m going to be once again tackling some weight issues. I’ve come more to terms with some decisions I’ve made to cut certain people out of my life. I’m beginning to realize that I don’t need to use my weight any longer as a shield from unwanted attention like I did when going through puberty. I am who I am and I need to stay healthy. Being morbidly obese is not healthy. I might not be clinically sick yet with obesity related problems but it is just a matter of time before they start appearing if I continue on the path I’ve been taking.
I’ve been contemplating a third tattoo. I have always known I want to get a trillium. I love their simplicity. I think I want to somehow incorporate some writing into it. Maybe something about not needing to hide as a reminder to myself. I think I’m going to start looking into designing something.