Okay, so I’m going to rant a bit because this jerk sitting in front of me in class turned on a box fan and its blowing RIGHT ON ME. Need I mention its SNOWING OUTSIDE? AND, ohh ohh, AND he’s wearing a sweatshirt. Yea, nice one jerk! Im freezing my rear end off because all I have on (like an idiot in the middle of winter) is a pair of thin black dress pants, socks, j-flops, a tanktop and a sweatshirt. I just solved my problem of my hands going numb but I still have goosebumps and am ice cold to the touch.
I’m still trying to figure out what college or university I plan to go to and that entails trying to figure out where I’m going to live. I refuse to live on campus because I don’t want to have to repeatedly move in and out of my dorm and I want to be able to stay where I am if I get a job while at that school. Having a dorm causes more problems that just roommates too. I mean, thinking about it, you don’t have access to the proper tools to eat healthy, you don’t have the options to live with someone or be guaranteed to live with someone you request, and you have the everlasting possibility that someone could falsely accuse you of doing some sort of prohibited substance (be it tobacco, herb, alcohol, or drug) and you could get kicked out faster than a spider-legged caterpillar! Yes, I know that having an apartment could be the same but taking into consideration that you aren’t loud and rowdy to your neighbors and you follow the rules, no one is apt to falsely accuse you of anything but being a good neighbor. Right? I mean, take into consideration that if you have a roommate or someone who rooms next door to you accuse you of something because they don’t like you or they are the ones doing said accusations but want to get off scott-free, you take more fall living in a dorm because you can get kicked out of not only the dorm, but the college/university itself whereas if you lived in an apartment, you have more of a chance to justify yourself or find new housing to avoid conflict. To me, it just makes more sense.
I’m not sure if anyone here knows exactly what I want to do with my life. After high school, I plan to go on to further my education and I am aiming for something in the field of psychology. I have more than considered working with autistic people of all ages because of my nephew and his autism but have come into contact with others with autism and don’t know how comfortable I would be if that did happen to be where I went. I mean, with autistics, you have to be aware of visual and verbal signals you send because it could trigger a bad reaction. Other negatives are if you scold a child or adult for inappropriate behavior either in public or private (say, the autistic gets within a centimeter of your face with theirs and won’t back down) you risk upsetting them and their keepers. Its just a really hard choice to make and procede with. So I have so much to think about in that aspect.
I guess the main reason for my ranting and raving right now would have to be that I am a bit jumbled in my life…I feel like things are just crashing down around me and that I have no ventilation system so all the steam is just building. I know we aren’t supposed to use any of our blogs for much else than weight loss but as always, stress adds to major weight loss and gain. Though I haven’t weighed myself, I do feel that I might have lost another pound or so. Here’s to hoping, right?
Anyway, onto more weight conscious topics. I have been eating salads daily, and in the morning eating apple cinnamon breakfast bars then usually waiting until dinner to eat anything more. I feel that maybe this should be changed around since I have really low blood sugars on a regular basis and need to intake sugars every now and then throughout the day. But today I allowed myself to splurge a bit on my lunch. I usually try to get a salad from my school cafeteria that contains just lettuce, carrots, cabbage, and tomatoes and generally, they run out of those types and Im forced to get the same but with dried out ham and loaded with shredded cheese. Lately, I’ve been using ranch dressing which is 120 calories a packet and I use two. Today, I go my cheese and ham-less salad, ranch dressing, and serving size carton of chocolate milk (my “massive” amount of sugar for the day) and I allowed myself to get a snack size bag of ChexMix. Oh, it was so worth it! It may have been 240 plus calories but I definitely needed some spice to my lunch.
I recently found out that my boyfriend probably won’t ever be able to afford gym memberships so I’ve been trying to think of ways to either make up for what we lose in gas money or find an unconventional way to exercise without a gym. Yesterday, instead of wasting gas, I took the bus to his house and walked about a half mile from the road where I was dropped off, to his house. I will say this…I cannot hold a candle to those of our elders who had to walk five miles to and from school or those who were tanks and could walk twenty miles to and from. Its truly amazing.
Anyway, I’ve written enough. I do believe its time to work on my video that was due for a class about a week or two ago (big procrastinator). I’m definitely need to stop procrastinating before I get out of high school, or I’ll be in a really bad predicament.
Enjoy your day/night everyone!