So here I am again. A week ago I was down nearly at 139 and here I sit at 144.5. I feel disgusting. I feel out of control. I feel like I am getting a little belly! I used to always be able to suck my stomach completely flat – now I suck in and there is a little belly left. I am getting super jiggly. I just cant seem to commit and it doesn’t help that every other second I am running off to an engagement party, bachelorette party, bridal shower, invitation making party, baby baptism, birthday party etc. I can’t seem to help myself- I also can’t help myself around Tim Horton- I have officially as of now given it up. I cannot eat or buy Ice Cappucinos there anymore. I need to stop lying to myself. I am really getting fat.