Had a huge binge last night but I am back on track tonight. I want to get this weight off. Not just for the obvious reasons like tight shirts and confidence but show myself I can.
I have been a little for dedicated to the gym and calorie cycling this week. No gym today but I am going to go for a walk this evening. I have my first weigh in since December on Monday and I am really nervous. I dont feel like I have changed alot.
I stayed at a friends, no gym, no healthy food, hardly any sleep and a lot of drama and to top it all off, ate shitty this weekend aswell. I am so disgusted with myself, I want to cry. Why does my mind always say to myself, eat this? Im not giving up but I just get sick of restarting, so on the this night I swear, I will take care of myself. I will stop eating for taste. I will start eating for nutrients. I wont let my mind bully my body into overeating. I wont let my family and friends tell me what to eat or not to eat. I will do this for me. So i can be proud of MYSELF.
SSOOOOOOO, I need to restart, fresh slate. Gym tomorrow, upperbody and 15 minute run. No bullshit. No excuses. Lets do this.
Breakfast: 1 egg and a peice of toast
Lunch: Tea, apple and yogurt
Snack: A peice of fruit or a vegtable
Dinner: rice noodles, meat, vegtables
NO SWEETS FOR ATLEAST 40 DAYS.
So today wasnt the best eating wise, I woke up starving and I seemed to of ate all day! Ah well still think I end up around 1800 calories for the day, but not of healthy food. Had a great workout at the gym and it was lower body! Tomorrow will be better.
First let me point out girls with abs are hot!! No homo. Anyways I think its going to be very tough to get abs like her just do to where I keep my weight. But why shouldnt i try? Oh yea I am also totally fine with a flat stomach.
Ok so I said I would mention what I had on my high calorie day….
Large steeped tea, long john, triple chocolate cookie, fruit explosion muffin, cinnamon bun and a fruit and yogurt cup….Thats about. 1200 calories in one meal!! Holy crap!
Ahhh, well it wasnt a cheat it was a choice. On ward weight loss!
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