I decided tonight that I need an attitude adjustment. Enough is enough. I’ve been around long enough to know that half-ass efforts give half-ass results. No more pity parties being thrown here! It’s been too long now that I’ve been stuck at this weight. I’m not gaining, but I’m not losing either. And at 240 that’s not a good place to be! So, starting tonight, I’m going to do the right thing and do it over and over again, day after day and see the results that I know are coming shortly!! Check back for updates!!!
For now at least! I go around and around with counting calories and intuitive eating. One stops working for me…well, not like it really stops working, but something inside of me stops working together with the plan. But anyways, I got kinda burned out with counting calories and IR just kicked in. I in no way want to sabotage my results so far, and self-control and common sense are co-existing together for me right now! I like this feeling. A detachment from food, aside from for nourishment and nutrition. I’m slowly learning to eat what I want, what I need, and what feels good to my body. Food is not the enemy. Just like how I don’t let my kids eat all the *sugar* they might want, I have realized over this past year that sugary and processed foods simply aren’t good choices for me - they will not lead me to the healthy life I desire, so it’s becoming easier to leave them in the past. The urge to binge has been nearly non-existent recently. With the holidays coming up I anticipate that I may resort back to counting calories. Maybe not? We’ll see.
I’m definitely on course to post a 60 pound loss for this year! Nearly half way there!
“We have a real life of our own.
Yes, we do.
That empty feeling, that sense that everyone except us has a life - an important life, a valuable life, a better life - is a remnant from the past. It is also a self-defeating belief that is inaccurate.
We are real. So is our life. Jump into it, and we’ll see.
Today, I will live my life and treasure it as mine.”
I read this today and it went right into my heart. I only have today. I don’t know about tomorrow. The grass may be greener somewhere else, but I am here. What I do today matters. I make a difference. That’s powerful! It’s good to be living in the moment.
- The season changing to fall is so refreshing!! Thr crisp morning air…ahhhh!
As the season changes this year I have lots to be thankful for! Good health - and improving each day. A happy family. Our finances falling into place as we work HARD to attack our debts. And so much more. Last year at this time I remember how I was struggling, emotionally,financially and physically. I never want to be in the state of mind again. No matter what life throws at me. I’m worth taking care of.
Our actions are inspired by our thoughts.
Over the past few months I’ve become more aware of my thought patterns - how listening to negative thoughts can tear down my strength and resolution. And how simply turning up the volume on thankfulness changes my whole view of life.
I’m making a very conscious decision to engage in positive self talk. I’m trying to treat myself as I would treat a dear friend. It’s been a big transition to treat myself this way. For so many years I focused on the negative internally - while *appearing* optimistic and happy to others. And a lot of that was negativity about my body weight and relationship with food. Not just my body and food though. As a mother to 2 little girls I am determined to get this right. I’ve spent too many years being negative about everything from the weather to my stomach to my little toenails! I never want them to hear me talk negatively about my body. I want to model healthy exercise behavior. And show them a healthy relationship with food. And above all else, be a genuinely happy and thankful woman!
I am going to attempt to log on here at least every day and write down 1 positive about my life, body, surroundings…anthing!
- I have a strong body. A. Really. Strong. Body. I love weight training!
My plan is to finish up 2008 strong. I started strong. I lost over 40 pounds but now since July have been bouncing around within a 5 pound range. I’m done with that. From one perspective it’s nice to know that I can maintain my loss. I haven’t had any major blow-out binges. But, on the other hand, I’m no where near a weight that is healthy for me to maintain! So, the journey must continue. As it will for the rest of my life. I’d love to lose another 40 pounds to finish out this year…but I’m not setting any goals in stone. I have shared this desire with Josh, my personal trainer, and he is upping the intensity on my workouts. This isn’t the magic solution though. It’s my food! Mostly being conscious about amounts I need to commit to recording on www.thedailyplate.com again. It works great and it’s such a valuable tool for me when I use it. So, I started that again today and I need to do it tomorrow. Once I do it for a few days it becomes natural. TBL challenge starts up again next week on 3FC and I’m excited about that also. It’s a fun challenge. So, I’m back in the saddle, or up on the Step Mill in this case, and going to work hard to stay on plan!!
I know. It’s an excuse, but I really want to get back to blogging and I cannot find the time.
Here’s a recap: Since beginning this journey on November 28th 2007, I’ve lost 44 pounds and can honestly say that it has not been difficult. Sure, I’ve had set-backs and had old habits rear their ugly heads. It hasn’t always been pretty. It certainly has not been fast! But over all, it’s been very peaceful and I’m not doing anything that I cannot do for the rest of my life. I do an minimum of 6 hours of exercise a week. With it being about 60% cardio and 40% weight training. I’m happy to report that I’ve gone from a size 22 to a size 16 and according to my personal trainer have only lost 3 pounds of lean muscle mass!! So, nearly all the weight I’ve lost is FAT! As far as a food plan goes, I bounce around between just calorie counting and The Zone. I lose faster on The Zone - balancing carbs, fat and protein at each meal and snack. But I don’t always feel like doing it. In the back of my mind I have July 2009 as the date I would like to be at my goal weight of 160.